Derealization, feeling "not with it"

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So the past 5-6 weeks have been absolute hell. I've always been anxious, but for 6 years it's been totally manageable.

I went out one night and got stupidly drunk, ended up at a friend of my sisters who was smoking strong weed. I ended up having some, or rather a lot of it. I'm not a smoker, but you do silly things when you're drunk. Anyway I had a super bad trip, and since then have been feeling hazy and weird, along with having panic attacks and such. The anxiety has gotten really bad. I sorta feel out of it all the time, I get random memories and thoughts popping into my head, I feel like I'm constantly on the lookout for these thoughts and feelings so it's making it worse.

I found out that what I'm experiencing sounds like derealization, a feeling of the world not quite feeling real. I must say since finding out that it's normal for anxiety sufferers to experience it, it has gotten better and I haven't had a full blown panic attack for three days. I still feel constantly tense/tingley, my throat feels blocked even when I'm not panicking, but I've constantly got the churning stomach.

Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? I'm currently just trying to embrace it, I know it sounds weird but I need to drill it into my head that it's nothing, it's not real and it won't harm me. It's working, but I'm still not where I was.

Anyway, just be nice to know I'm not alone!

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    Do you find it worse in certain situations?
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      I actually find it worse when I'm alone/have time to think.  I think I focus on it more when I don't have something to distract me.  Keep thinking I'm going crazy, even though I know what it is.
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      Exactlysmile When I'm readin or working on a paper or out with friends I don't think about it but the second my mind had time to think that's all I focus on. It's also worse for me in bright Grocery atores
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    I have noticed a lot of stories about people trying weed an having bad trip.Staying more anxious for a time afterwards.Some even try weed again as others try to convince it was just a bad trip and that they should try again. Please do not try again.I know weed is popular but can create problems for sensitive people.I used drugs for a long time before I got clean and I have seen people have very bad reactions.It will get better.Take care
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