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So the past 5-6 weeks have been absolute hell. I've always been anxious, but for 6 years it's been totally manageable.
I went out one night and got stupidly drunk, ended up at a friend of my sisters who was smoking strong weed. I ended up having some, or rather a lot of it. I'm not a smoker, but you do silly things when you're drunk. Anyway I had a super bad trip, and since then have been feeling hazy and weird, along with having panic attacks and such. The anxiety has gotten really bad. I sorta feel out of it all the time, I get random memories and thoughts popping into my head, I feel like I'm constantly on the lookout for these thoughts and feelings so it's making it worse.
I found out that what I'm experiencing sounds like derealization, a feeling of the world not quite feeling real. I must say since finding out that it's normal for anxiety sufferers to experience it, it has gotten better and I haven't had a full blown panic attack for three days. I still feel constantly tense/tingley, my throat feels blocked even when I'm not panicking, but I've constantly got the churning stomach.
Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? I'm currently just trying to embrace it, I know it sounds weird but I need to drill it into my head that it's nothing, it's not real and it won't harm me. It's working, but I'm still not where I was.
Anyway, just be nice to know I'm not alone!
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