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Derealization sucks.

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nina11225
nina11225

So I'm gonna get straight to the point here. I think i've been suffering from derealization 24/7 for about two weeks now. I haven't had any drugs or trauma, but I do have health anxiety and have been battling that for about 3 months. My therapist isn't available until March. Every day when I wake up it still feels like I'm in a dream. My family and friends seem so foreign and it feels weird when I try to talk to them. I also get this stupid repetitive thoughts like "What if no one is real?". Or "What if my whole life isn't real?" I just want it to stop but I can't stop thinking about it because it feels like I'm losing my mind. Even my own house feels strange. When I go out in public, I get kinda dizzy and zone out a lot. Then I get uncomfortable around people because I might lose control and hurt someone, which is something I would never do! This is so fustrating because it feels like it will never stop and I feel like no one understands. I'm afraid if I tell someone about this, they'll send me away to a mental institution. Sorry about the rant but I'm really fed up with this. I just want to go back to normal and be happy and myself again. 

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    suzie85950 nina11225

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    I know exactly how you feel and it's horrible! When it's bad, I feel so anxious around my family and friends because they feel strange to me, unfamiliar and uncomforting. Sometimes my house doesn't feel like my home, roads that I drive down every day look different, things that I've written down don't feel familiar. It's so hard to explain to people and it's so scary x
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