Describe anxiety in your own words

It's like having a gun held against your head, knowing it's going to go off but not knowing when.

For me it's like having an explosive in the center of my body that goes off randomly and extends to my extremities. It's always there and I never know when it'll go off.

It is a feeling that only you, the person experienceing it could truly understand. For me it is a feeling of dread, of pure fear of what is to come and what has already happened. For me it is always there, hiding in the shadows. It is a battle fought with yourself, but yet not yourself something else, not logical at all. It is also confusion, trying to figure out what is happening, what you are so scared of and there tends to be nothing in particular that you are scared of just things that you project your fear onto. And when it happens in public it is like being shot by a 50 cal and no one cares to notice. Not because they don't want to help but because they don't see anything wrong it is all in my head. So that is it. All that I think of it I guess.

I want to say its like a thousand little deaths. Something that creeps into every aspect of life, into every crevice and maybe deeper. it is uncontrollable but yet controllable. The ultimate fear of fears but manages to manifest itself physically and be quite destructive mentally. to challenge it, to over ride it has been one of the most life altering experiences on so many levels. It changed me completely in every way. There is just noway to forge thru this without have some form of deep spiritual experience (not religon based i dont know how to explain this part, just know it happened). Im not even sure there are actual words to explain what this is or has done, its nothing anyone ever wanted or wants on any level. Maybe it undefinable, maybe it is a challenge on a higher level then we can imagine. We have no choice but to go to a deeper place within us to manage it. I feel it has also taken from me enjoying the world around me, dreams and aspirations that

once existed..and yet it has replaced them with a higher level of understanding of what is important and what is to be cherished. I would have preferred to be more shallow lol, enjoyed and lived as i see so many exist. This wasnt a choice. 

Love everyone's thoughtfull ansrews keep emailing coming!!

you feel like you are not you any more,that you have lost control of your whole being and this cruel illness has taken over all you want to be is happy and normal like everyone else. it stops you from living a normal life. you feel that you have lost your sanity and in the worst of it all you want to do is sleep just to get some peace. you will have pains you never thought possible you will have eevry conceivable illness going and the irrational thoughts, one part of your brain tells you something is right the other tells you its wrong so you are battling within your own mind. I am lucky as I am through the tunnel at the moment for years i battled this but know I have CBT which teaches you how to work with it and control it. this is the first time in my life i am control it rather than it control me. some people have it most of their life its part of their make up hey thats me! but guess what anxiety you are on a losing battle this time. you can get through this my lovely I have dont know when it will come back but i will be kicking butt next time. I have wasted so much of my life letting it take over my life not any more  

Trapped, especially in a cage. Perhaps you feel safe in your cage, or perhaps you want to be freed. Either way, a cage has openings that maybe you can't squeeze out of, but something else could. You have a fear of whatever can make its way into your cage. A flying arrow that'll stab you, a rodent or rat of some sort, and so forth. It's like having your own safe haven that has pros and cons, but you're still paranoid on what can destroy it.

Hell on earth.