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im Mia and I'm 19. I've always had an intense fear of death but I've never ever been one to assume the worst when it comes to my health. However a while back I innocently searched what might be behind the twitches I sometimes get in the morning and the first thing that came up was huntingtons disease. This triggered probably one of the most severe panic attacks I've ever had. It was like just seeing those words meant I had it. Since then worrying about my health has been constant to the point where it's taken over my life completely more so than my anxiety and depression ever has. I've come to the conclusion that I don't have huntingtons but at this point I've diagnosed myself with so many neurological illnesses, I'm terrified I have something incurable and degenerative. My twitches have got ten times worse, not a day goes by where I don't twitch, they literally are everywhere hands feet face legs arms etc. My hands shake and I get tingly feelings in my feet all the time. I also deal with a lot of back pain which ranges from ache to felling like it's burning. I feel like on one hand I've sent myself into a health anxiety induced tail spin on the other hand I feel like I'm dying. I've booked an appointment for the doctors but I'm terrified to go incase he tells me my life is over which sounds silly I know. I just want to know if what I'm experiencing is common?
PS never go on google in regard to symptoms. Ever. It's a trap. It will turn even the most logical and critical thinking person into a paranoid mess haha
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