Determined to enjoy this holiday!

So i'm 23 and i'm off to Las Vegas in just over 2 weeks time with the missus, my best mate and his missus. I've got bad health anxiety, and every holiday in recent times i've kind of ruined it for myself by worrying about something, i went to dubai last year and i spent most of it worrying about a mole on my arm, worrying it was changing. 7 months later and it's still the same, so I ruined that holiday slightly for no reason!

Went to Florida last year too, was worried about some testicle pain, 11 months later absolutley fine, so that was slightly ruined too. Went to rome 2-3 years ago, spent it worrying about chest pains/heart, ruined that big time.

So now i've got las vegas coming up, 23 years age it should be one of the holidays that i remember for the rest of my life. But my anxiety is starting to build about my chest pains/heart again, even though i've had countless ecg's, two stress ecg's, a 72 hour ecg and an echocardiogram which all come back fine.

Stupid me about a year ago a heart rate monitor for running (im not fit at all, i dont run much, for some reason i wanted to see my heart rate while running because i'd experienced chest pains while running too) so i put it on, running normal my pulse was fine. Then for some strange reason i thought i would absolutley leather it and sprint as fast as i can for aslong as i can and see what it will be. Did it, checked it and my pulse was 200 odd, which scared me but my doctor said its normal sometimes for a pulse to get high when you're that young and you push yourself to the limit. Anyway on my 72 hour ECG, i did the same again, went for a run etc and the cardioligist said nothing about it so even he isn't concerned about it.

Since i was like 15 i've suffered from excercise induced nausea, im fine just doing it at my own pace but say if i had a personal trainer telling me to do 20 pushups and 20 sit ups then 20 star jumps i'll go all sick and dizzy sometimes, not all the time.. which doesnt help me. I know its normal to feel sick and dizzy sometimes when you over push yourself but i hate the feeling, say if im playing football and its a proper fast game it happens then too but its just something i need to work on, getting my fitness up. 

I really want to get this out the way before Vegas so i can just enjoy the holiday, ive had all the tests and for what slight chance there was for a 23 year old to have heart problems, theyve been ruled out by the tests so why can't i just move on. so frustrating.. 

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