Discussing my life circumstances and the problems I've been dealing with.
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Hi Patient forum,
I'm a 28 year old male and I live in the United States. I spend most of my days trying to stick to my "daily schedule" where I practice mindfulness meditation (I'm currently reading a good book on it titled "The Mind Illuminated"), exercise regularly with resistance bands and a jump rope, use social media, and I'm trying to set up an e-commerce store selling product in replacement of a regular 9-5 job.
I don't currently have any friends that I hang out with (have lots of "old friends") or a girlfriend and I'm OK with that for now, and I do live a more "isolated" existence outside of my immediately family (who I see daily) in the sense that I stay home frequently. I stay home regularly as a choice and not because of any type of issue, as I like the safety that being home gives me.
I do wonder if I have a "health issue" sometimes because when I'm working on my e-commerce store I notice myself getting up and doing other things often. I feel like I'm not concentrating as well as I would like to and not working as productively on my store because of this. I also suffer from the "eyes up" (in my eyes and brain area) where I'll feel very sensitive from time to time. It's like my mind or my eyes just feel very "sensitive" or something in addition to being a bit unfocused.
I've talked to doctors and have heard different medical opinions. I had a blood test and mostly everything checked out well. I was told I was high on glucose and very mildly high on bilirubin. They did a second blood test to check for diabetes because my glucose was high, but the test went well and I didn't test for diabetes or even prediabetes. No doctor I've spoke with has confirmed any physical health issue to me yet.
I apologize if this post is kind of long. I'm basically just wondering why I can be so unfocused when working and feel so "sensitive" in my eyes or brain / mind area sometimes? Has anybody else experienced anything like this? I can expand on this further if need be. Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself.
I'm a pretty happy person, otherwise, despite this occasional suffering. I hope everybody else on this forum finds the answers they seek or is able to have productive conversation for any health or medical questions they may have.
I'm a newbie to this forum and this is my first post so apologies if there's any mistakes in my post.
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Marina_Dee Guest
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You sound like you are very strict with yourself in mind and body. Possibly too strict and cant let go and have some fun? You are probably just being far too intense with everything and your subconscious is saying...hey, how about letting up a bit and doing something different.
Are you really enjoying working on your E commerce project? or are you finding it more time consuming than you realised?
Give yourself some chill out days. Get out of the house for a whole day. Doing something entirely different with friend/s . you need some laughter in your life. Your Isolated existence is not good for your mental health.