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So in April last year I began going out with friends again. I had just gotten out of an abusive relationship and it was nice to go out and have the freedom I wasn't used to. I began drinking on the weekends with friends & occasionally as time went on also on the weekdays. Only I began noticing how I'd drink my glass quicker than all my friends around me and would be onto the next glass within minutes. Sometimes I'd try slow myself down incase anybody noticed but I find that difficult. As times gone on my nights out seem to get worse and worse. In july last year I suffered a brain bleed whilst out drinking and I thought that would stop me but its not. Anytime I'm out I loose all sense of control, end up in strangers homes and beds and do wreckless things that I wouldnt do sober, ive ended up in hospital 4 times in the space of 11 months due to alcohol. I feel ashamed in the morning and when im drinking its like i cant stop. Its affecting my relationships around me and im loosing friends over my behaviour. My family say I shouldnt drink and there concerned but its really difficult. Every time I think 'ill be better this time, I wont act silly' etc but It just gets worse each time. On saturday when I was out we were walking to a different club & I can remember being angry inside my head cause they wouldn't hurry up and I felt like I was literally craving alcohol and of course yet again I ended up legless, lost & talking to strangers. So I guess what I'm asking is do I have a problem & is there any advice I can be given?
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