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Hi guys im rather new to this so any help is appreciated and i find putting things into words pretty hard so please bare with me.
Basically for as long as i can remember (and its gradually getting worse) i suffer from extreme worrying and anxiety, which is getting harder and harder to cope with mentally and keep my emotions in check. I struggle to cope in my mind with pretty much everything and worry about little and big things equally to the extent were i end up having sleepless nights over what would be perceived as basically nothing (i.e. most would shrug it off). its got to the extent were i dont know what it is to feel relaxed or in control any more and i feel like im stuck in a viscous cycle wer im continually on edge and worrying about several issues at the same time so my mind doesnt shut off. I dont feel like im myself anymore and to put it bluntly, i feel like im not all together ther. It is affecting me to the extent were im continually swinging moods between sad (to the extent were i just break down and cry) to irritable or angry and its effecting my relationship with my family, friends and my new girlfriend. I have to admit ive been hiding it but im TERRIFIED of what im becoming and i feel like my head is going to explode.
Im sorry if im not making much sense i just dont know the best way to describe what im going through.
as for symptoms i am always tired and dont get much sleep. It affects me at work were im always distracted and cant focus on anything (i.e. blank mind or worrying about things). I feel tense and constantly on edge. I worry about everything and even have dark thoughts which disgust me when i think back on them but i just get wound up on situations (one of the lighter examples being if my brother goes out with his friends and doesnt come in by the time he said he would i start thinking hes been mugged or worse) please dont judge me i just cant help it.
so sorry to drag on (im in tears writing this and like i said emotions all over the place) but back to my original question i need help should i see my gp?, could it be an anxiety disorder?, its just so tricky with mental health and like i said im scared of what im becoming or telling my family about my issues.
like i said im new to this thanks for reading any help would be greatly appreciated
im just so lost
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