Do I have breast cancer/lymphoma or just anxiety??

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I suffer from health anxiety and go through bad bouts of depression. I have had kidney stones recently and they're back so I'm suffering the pain in my back every single day now and it seems there's nothing they can do at the moment. Need to wait to see if they pass. That's another matter... although it doesn't help my health anxiety. I'm convinced that's something more and feel I shouldn't have to suffer this pain day in, day out.

I have been getting breast pain and under arm pains in both sides, aswell as pain in my collar bone, groin, back, fingers and feet for the last couple of months. I got it constant for about two weeks previously. It went away and now it's back. I was trying to link it to my period cycle but doesn't match up in any way. Of course, when I look it up, it's telling me all sorts. I am panicking. The doctor doesn't seem concerned. I've had constant blood tests (which I'm sure something would show up?), scans of my abdomen area due to kidney stones and everything is fine in that area. I have had a chest x ray recently too. All clear in lung and heart area.

I haven't, however, thoroughly been checked in the armpit or breast area. 

I am simply freaking out. I am so scared they are missing something and feel I'm in too much pain to be ok. Of course I am reading that I have all the signs of breast cancer or lymphoma. There doesn't seem to be any other diagnisis that fits the bill. I hate this constant worry and debilitating pain.

I also feel embarrassed to be going back to the docs!! I'm there constantly!! 

Has anyone had anything similar and it wasn't the dreaded capital 'C'??

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    Jak

    It sounds like you have become sensitized to your body and every pain or twinge is worrying you. Try and relax and trust your GP, if you have had all your tests and have been checked over this should put your mind at rest.

    Kidney stones can be very painful and sometimes this may cause you to worry to much. I had stones removed and my Gallbladder removed and it took time to get over the operation. Try and move on hopefully if the stones this time are small and pass rather than having an operation.

    Try and relax, move on, everyone goes through challenging times with their health during their lives, you are not alone you need to be confident and accept your GPs diagnosis and any treatments offered

    BOB

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      Thanks BOB,

      I really appreciate your reply. My doctor keeps telling me to come back if the symptoms persist or worsen, but of course they are going to - I have health anxiety. 

      I've had a major panic today. My usual thoughts about diseases and death have just heightened dramatically and I freaked out. I know you should never google your symptoms but it's so difficult for me not to. 

      I really appreciate you replying to my message. It has been a comfort in a dire time of need! Thank you. 

      Take care! 

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    Hi ,  first of all, the worst thing you can do is look up symptoms. The odds are that none of them pertain to you even though your symptoms can appear in different conditions.  For example, a common symptom of anxiety is shortness of breath and sometimes even chest pain. So if a person googles chest pain and shortness of breath, it can show heart attack. But that doesn't mean that person is going to have a heart attack  if the symptom is caused by anxiety. So when you look things up online, you're just scaring yourself needlessly.  Then when you become more anxious, you get more symptoms. 

     looks like you've been checked out by your Doctor Who is not concerned. Just so you know, anxiety can cause hundreds of different symptoms including  aches and pains, sore muscles which I have had also, sometimes even a viral infection such as a cold or flu  can cause the lymph nodes under the arms, neck and groin area to enlarge a little bit which is perfectly harmless  when caused by a benign virus . 

    I encourage all women to do a self breast check every month between periods,  whether  they are having pains or not.  Women should know the difference between feeling fibrous tissue which is movable and harmless and feeling a smooth hard round lump which you would tell your doctor about.  

    But  for your peace of mind, pain is caused by many many different reasons most of which  are harmless. Just have your regular check ups at the doctors and if the doctor tells you everything is fine then you need to start working on managing the anxiety. Anxiety can really  do a number in our heads! Anxiety causes are thinking to go straight to the negative and worst-case scenerio!  

     Believe me, I've been battling negative thinking since first grade. I finally learned after all these years how to control it and not let it ruin my life. I would worry about literally everything! When I was younger, worried my parents would die,  then I had kids and worried about something happening to them, worried about diseases, and on and on. I literally wasted years of my life worrying and nothing bad ever happened. You are young and most likely very healthy it's just that you have let fear take you over .  All the what if thinking is not based on reality, it's things you have made up in your mind  that is not based on fact but random thoughts in your head that are negative and eating away at you. Yes you are having these symptoms but the odds are way in your favor especially at your age, that everything  is just fine. I have had all those symptoms and I am doing well. 

     if you would ever like to learn how to separate the negative thoughts from yourself, there are a couple things you can do… 

     first, there are excellent audio meditations on YouTube that deal specifically with anxiety and negative thinking. They teach you how to separate negativity from yourself. You can just do a search and I like to use earbuds and lie down. There are  many to choose from. 

     if you can get a hold of a book called mindfulness, it also teaches you how to think in a way, that eliminates the negativity in the mind and reducing anxiety. It's definitely a great read. 

     I would also suggest stay active and do things you enjoy. Don't sit around and think and think and look up symptoms it will only make you feel worse. 

     my symptoms have been reduced by 98% by keeping my mind focused on other things, doing things for other people, exercising, doing the meditations a couple times a day, staying off googling symptoms ,  Reading and learning from the book, Remembering to laugh and smile.

    if you're having a really hard time, speaking with a counselor who specializes in anxiety can really be helpful! It helped me a lot and this is something that can be hard to overcome on our own

    . Don't give into fear  because FEAR  stands for false evidence appearing real which means when we have symptoms we think they are evidence of a terrible disease when in reality the odds are that they are not. Fear will eat away at you and make your life miserable so you must be a fighter for yourself! 

      

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      Thank you so much Jan,

      What a comfort to read this. I feel I am in constant pain and unable to do anything but I suppose you're right, thinking this way will make me this way and I probably am catastrophising. 

      It doesn't help that my partner, who is an excellent support network for me, works away most weeks and I feel so lonely and frightened in my own pain and thoughts. 

      I have started counselling (only had 3 sessions so far). I know it's early days but I am so fed up with it all. You've hit the nail on the head about 'wasting time' with worrying. That's what I don't want to do. I am constantly thinking about diseases and death and it's stopping me from enjoying my life! I need the help now to get rid of this fear and make the most of my life rather than wondering when my time will be. Mobid! Depressing! 

      You sound like you've really overcome your anxieties and this really gives me hope. Thank you for taking the time to reply. You have no idea how much I appreciate this! 

      Take care and message anytime!

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      I'm so glad!

       I wasted over 20 years with worrying over nothing. I just didn't want to see the same thing happened to you.  

       try not to get frustrated when during your recovery you might have a great day followed by a not so great day. That is perfectly normal and all part of the process. Eventually it will even out.  

       remember, the past are memories now and the future isn't even here yet .  We need to live in the present moment because if we spend today with worry , fear  and mental Misery,  we have lost today and will never get it back. 

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      You're so right! Thanks again! I can't wait to get a bit of normality and enjoyment beck in my life, although, I'm struggling to forget what that's like. 7 years worth of this so far and it's getting worse and more tiring. Time to get the help I need. Talking about it is defintiely a good start though. Thank you. 

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    Hey jac,

    I had a savings ideas you a couple of months ago. It actually just lasted until the Middle of June. The big C is a scary word. I was at the doctors getting all sorts of tests and having them fill my lymph nodes. They assured me that I was OK too. It's just tough one you think there's something more sinister going on? ! My suggestion for you is if you don't see a psychologist start and see if you can maybe have them prescribe something that will calm your anxiety. Mine was so bad that I was depressed . You don't want yours to lead you down the path!

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      Hey Pipboy,

      Ddi you have similar pains then? I am just convinced they are just palming me off until I complain enough. It's frustrating me. I am already depressed. I'm in a deep dark place and it's scary. I have been getting couselling but still early days I suppose. Only had 4 sessions. 

      Got the docs tomorrow so going to explain everything, including my crippling anxiety about my pains. (my hands and fingers have pain right now! agh)

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      I actually suffered an illness in March and into April. It was a fever that sort of came out of nowhere and my glands became very small one. I spiraled from there even after having all the blood work and test to say nothing was seriously wrong. I didn't have pain but it sounds like that something you definitely need to address with your doctor. I know the mind is a crazy thing sometimes how I can just go. And anxiety can cause all sorts of issues.

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