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Right here I go!. I was addicted to diazepam and abused it for about 4 years. I went cold turkey in September 2015 stopped them all together. It's August 2016 now and my confidence is still zero! Anyways when I wad taking diazepam I was brilliant I got things done my I worked really well I managed my own company I saved 1000s of pounds I was really living the dream very confident in speaking to people managing money nothing was stopping me. I just can't build my self up no more I'm trying everything I'm constantly at low I lost weight because I don't train any more I eat rubbish food. Iv feel iv let my self go. Iv lost 2 jobs. Iv tried taking anti depressants they made me worse for 2 months. I found out i losing my job again 3 weeks ago so I took a diazepam to calm me down. Some how my confidence is back my boss is happy with me iv got another company on my back with better pay. I'm getting things done and I'm happiest iv ever been again!. Last September me and my ex girlfriend broke up. I stopped taking diazepam the moment we broke up because I thought that and working to many hours wad the reason we split! But it wasn't the diazepam reason why we split because that never got mentioned it was the fact I was over working!. I hope people don't think I'm using this as a way to make me think it's alright to take diazepam or trying to use it as a reason to take diazepam! I'm not prescribed diazepam I gets prescription ones off a mate. I take 5 mg once in 2-3 days! If they making me feel worth waking up for and helping me stop thinking that if anything else goes wrong in my life I'm going to kill my self don't u think I should be prescribed them? Was the whole reason I was taking them before the reason I was feeling so great? Iv tried everything to build my confidence up. I'm with a new girl now and iv felt a bit of a failure because she seen the house iv lived in she's seen the car I used to own and now I'm back with my parents. I seen a doctor and I couldn't really tell them how I was feeling because it was hard to with out diazepam. I need to go to dentist I was to scared. But now iv got the number and ready to book appointment Monday. Wouldn't have wanted to go if it wasn't for the diazepam? Do u think I need diazepam? I think I do even if it's 2mg I need something. This is me. I'm sick to death mopping around not feeling with it. Can't speak to people I used to. Making excuses not to go places. I'm best man at my mates wedding on 21st Iv been dreading it but since diazepam iv been looking forward to it. Can anyone else see this? Diazepam helps me? Do you think the doctor would believe me if I said this to them? Anyone else with a similar problem? Thank you in advance
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