Do I up my dose? what to expect?
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I've been on citalopram 20mg for years now and overcame severe anxiety. Moved out, got work, had children. just over a week ago something traumatic happened and I had a panic attack. Havent had anxiety properly for a while so was a big shock. since then I've had constant anxiety/panic attacks. I can not calm down the symptoms of anxiety are always there not getting and relax time all my old coping methods arent helping. I cant eat, sleep or anything. I have 2 toddlers so have to be ok to look after them. I've got the doctor monday and last week we spoke about if it hadn't faded we could look at upping my dose from 20mg to 30mg. I'm already really bad and scared upping the dose will make me worse or mess me up even more. will it fade. Right now I cant carry on feeling like this it's so hard. I've got an assessment for counselling Tuesday. I'm taking propranolol fast release 40mg 3 times a day. Started them again last week as I had stopped them. I guess I'm just asking for advice or what to do because I don't know and I really cant afford to get any worse and with anxiety I know it can always be worse. Last time round I didnt have children so could take my time to recovery now I have no choice but to get up, school run ect. I should also add, my anxiety was generalised but a trigger was eating in front of people (including close relatives) so now eating is a big thing and I feel that's what's keeping my anxiety there because I'm around food all day with the kids and making dinner ect. sorry for the long post I'm just so lost right now xx
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LFS natasha46740
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hi how are you this morning? i understand what your going. couple of things back in summer triggered the most awful anxiety and its honestly been the hardest few months of my life. i to overcame severe anxiety years ago but like you lived at home. this time i have two small children and like you have school runs etc that i have to get up for. very hard putting a face on at the school gates that you are feeling okay. i always look about at everyone chatting and wonder if anyone else feels like this however it doesnt look like they do. i have been upping my dose since july and now on 20mg (last time recovered on 10mg) although i think the responsibility of kids etc has made it worse this time. im still no where near recovery. i just want my life back. and increase might help but maybe make you feel worse to start everyone is so different. i just wanted to reply to say your not alone and i know what your going through. leigh x
natasha46740 LFS
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Hi thank you so much for responding. I'm feeling the same as yesterday. Mornings and falling to sleep at night seem to be the worst for me right now. I get it through the day too. I've taken an extra 10mg so 30mg all together today going to see how I feel over the next week see if it makes any difference at all hoping I notice something because I'm really struggling at the minute. it's so hard when you've over come it before and boom back at square one think that's why I'm feeling so low this time round because I worked so hard to get rid of it. I know exactly how you feel. I know you said your still a long way from recovery but did the 10mg make any difference at all did they help in the slightest? I'm just taking each day as it comes and focusing on the kids. It's all we can do. hoping you feel relaxed and less anxious soon xx
LFS natasha46740
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hello its all just so horrible isnt it and very hard when you have kids to look after when you just want to hide away. its making me feel very low to as i just want to be me again. i am normally a bubbly happy person. yes mornings are awful i feel anxious most of the day to. i fall asleep okay but usually wake up super early 4/5/6 and cant get back to sleep and then tired all day when makes anxiety worse. i have had good weeks on all doses which makes it worse to feel terrible again. ive also missed so much work which is stressful as work for myself. the worst for me is the intrusive thoughts all the what ifs wish they would go away. makes me scared to be alone. 10 didnt do much for me but im sure as your adding 10 to your 20 you will get some relief from it. i was having a good couple of weeks then have ended up with a cold and time of month and its put me straight back to the start again. so hoping 20 works for me. i no just have to keep plodding on hoping recovery comes soon xx
LFS natasha46740
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hi how are you getting on with your increase? i keep waking at 4 am now i dread going to bed knowing ill wake so early then have school run etc to do. hope your getting on okay. leigh xx