Do some people just have to live with this crap?
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I am so tired of talking about feeling bad and unmotivated and having symptoms jump from just sad to migraines to aches and pains. I have been on Lexapro for 6 months and added seroquil to it at some point. I think the meds helped for a while but made me so sleepy and gain weight. I was glad to get a little weight back after having lost 40 pounds when this thing started. I had gone through spine surgery which went really well but left me physically healed from surgery but completely and totally helpless with my racing thoughts and panic attacks. I since have had panic attacks at least once a week. Every now and then I wake up one morning without all the aches and pains and think I feel good, almost too good. Every time I have hope but in just a day or two or maybe mid afternoon the gloom and sad are back. I have been off all medication for about 3 weeks and thought I was going to be fine but low and behold all my previous symptoms are coming back. I think they are worse this time. I hate to admit that I have started abusing alcohol badly. I have become socially withdrawn again. I used to have cookouts at my house every weekend and now I close the gates and hide in the house. To top it all off, my wife has gone through menopause and is some what depressed too. She has lost interest in sex and seems to be as low as I am. I wish I could help her but I am not in a state to be able too. I have said enough for now. Anyone else with just one thing after another until completely bogged down and not knowing where to begin... Again
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deee
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If your body can cope, exercise, exercise,exercise. I currently have an Achillies problem so I do non-load bearing work in the swimming pool. Find/found a self help program and maybe go together. I had a long experience of Seroquel - yes, drowsy, slow, it's an emotion suppressor. Hard to get off.
Have you been checked out physically? There are several physical problems that have startling similarities to depression. Ypur wife too. Remember, too, there is often a `mourning' reaction to menopause. Realistic, too. Self esteem is tied to reproduction, particularly for women. Young, attractive, fertile women are highly valued. It was ever thus. Which cave man wanted to provide food and shelter for old women who couldn't contribute, and probably bossed them around? Of course it was the young women who insisted on feeding Granny. I wonder why?
Don't discount the physical effects of menopause, which can include depression. Hormones can be unforgiving. Not everyone welcomes the end of youth, maybe some of your probs are tied in there too? There are certainly programs aimed at helping women navigate menopause.
Here comes the dilemma. Bearing in mind withdrawals from both anti-depressants and anti-psychotics can be lengthy and unpleasant, physically AND emotionally. Whatever the reasons are for your depression, and there will be some, the drugs do NOTHING to change that. They suppress, they don't `cure'. You have choices. Go back on the drugs which are a) no better than a placebo (sugar pill) for 80% of users; b) if they DO help, it doesn't last as the brain adapts to them (hence withdrawals- any `chemical imbalance' is CAUSED by them); c) The emotional dependence, `I'll get `sick' again if I stop, scares you. Not helpful. The drugs CREATE an environment of stress, which must then be treated with more of them, using as many as 4 different drugs to treat the drugs - can you see a snake swallowing its tail? And the combination of some of these substance can kill.
I know it's hard, I've been there. For 13 years! About a year ago I had an `epiphany'. One day I said, `they've had me long enough!' I don't know the process of what happened but I've been out of there for nearly a year. I don't expect this to happen to others. If I did, and could harvest it I would be a wealthy woman.
Your story is one of hundreds where, after medical `treatment' for a non-medical `disorder', you are just as bad as ever, or even worse because you feel like you've failed. NO YOU HAVEN'T! The treatments have. Mor and more people are `sick'. This is an obvious indictment of the bio-docs. What they do doesn't WORK. Even they don't claim they can `cure' anyone. But there are people out there who are healed. You need to find them.
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No more depression.
My point is that there may be all sorts of things going on that are more or less under control, the bridge is OK,shaky but OK, but add one more piece and it will fall down. I think it's really a matter of reaching the overwhelming point. Everyone handles pain and stress in their own way.
My later surgeries impacted on my life in very positive ways. Something wasn't right -> surgery -> right.
I don't know the details, and I don't need to, mtm but I suspect there were serious issues because spinal surgery is not done lightly. I guess there would always have to be a fear at the back of your mind about potential for permanent injury in such a case. This is just the kind of thing that triggers a stress reaction. I would call what is happening to you quite a normal reaction to your experience. There should be professionals out there who specialise in this kind of post-op trauma. If you had rehab, they should have helped you then. It's a worry that maybe they didn't. Emotional rehab is just as important as physical rehab. You may be able to qualify, even after 6 months. Check it out.
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