Do you know what this was?

This actually happened to me years ago, but it still bugs me from time to time that I don't really understand it, and I never told anybody about it. So, when I was about 15 or 16 (I'm female, if it's relevant), I got this sort of bump on the side of my face. One of those sort of bumps that people just get sometimes?? I know Christopher Eccelston has something like it on his face (sorta the same place as mine), and I remember just seeing various people on TV sometimes with that sort of blemish. So I figured, oh well, it happens, I guess I just have to live with this. I did actually try popping it like a zit a few times, but to no avail. Just made it bleed. So I lived with it for months, possibly around a year. Suddenly, though, it became sore like a zit, and I could start to see that white sort of pustule on it. I sort of figured it was like I was just getting a zit right on top of it??? Well, as one who can't resist popping those annoying things, I popped it. And you know that semi-solid white stuff that comes out of zits? Well, a whole ton of it came out of this. Like, it wasn't just what was in that new zit, it was whatever was in this bump all along. I just kept squeezing, grabbing tissues to wipe it away every few seconds because it just kept coming and coming. It was disgusting and I felt horribly embarrassed, part of the reason why I've never talked about it before. Eventually it got to the point where I was getting nothing but clear pus, so I stopped. The bump on my face had definitely gone down, but it was still there.

So a week or so passed and it started feeling irritated again just like a zit, so I popped it again, squeezed out a bunch of stuff (though not as much as before), until I squeezed out all I could and I stopped. After another week, it became irritated again, and again I popped it. This time, when I had squeezed all the white stuff out, I noticed that there was something more in there that just couldn't come all the way out no matter how much I squeezed. It was white like all of the material that came out before, so I wanted it out as well. Squeezing the blemish made it sort of come out a little bit, so I eventually managed to grab it with my fingernails and pull it out. It definitely wasn't the same material that comes out of zits. It was fairly solid (though very small of course - maybe half a centimeter in length), and it was sort of almost like a pouch??? Like this was what had contained everything else in that blemish all that time. In any case, there definitely wasn't anything else left in there. No more bump. The wound at this point was actually a little lower than the rest of the skin on my face. Anyway, I was happy enough with this. I had gotten rid of the bump and I figured it would heal like any blemish.

Well it never really fully healed. I mean, it's not an open wound or anything, but it doesn't seem like a scar either (though I guess that's the only way I could classify it). It's still dark reddish, like a scab maybe, still slightly depressed in my face. It still just looks like a tiny wound in my face, if you look at it close up. It's really not very noticeable at all unless you're really looking at it. It kinda bugs me sometimes, but hey, it doesn't hurt or anything, whatever. 

But I dunno, I think about it every now and then and wonder just what the heck it was that I did. Because I mean I know zits but I've never heard of anything like this. And today I started feeling especially grossed out about it because this nasty thought entered my head. What if it never really healed properly because that tiny white pouch thing was actually like some essential part of the pore?? If that makes any sense. Like it can't heal like normal skin because there's something missing. It sounds dumb, and I know absolutely nothing about this sort of stuff, so it's really just me freaking out about something that is probably insignificant. But I figured, hey, the internet is anonymous, and I've always been curious about this, so why not finally tell someone about it and see if anyone has a clue as to what it was. 

I'm sorry this turned out so long and rambly. I've never actually written out a description of it before. Sorry if this is just nasty and for no reason, but if you have any idea of what this was or what I did wrong here, please let me know. It's been driving me crazy for years now.

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