Do you regret times when you're depressed?

With having to spend more time in the house with my elderly parents lately, I feel more depressed and want to just be alone. They're fine, average parents, I guess. But they have vastly different interests from me, and it's not unheard of for us to end up arguing when we are around one another. I end up holing up in my own room and don't want to be around people or do anything.

But then I hear stories of how people regret not spending enough time with their parents while they were alive and wishing they could turn back time and "spend just one more hour". And also stories of people who wish they did more with their lives while they had the chance.

And stories like that make me anxious and panicky that I'm wasting precious time in depressed ennui. Then I feel pressured to get up and Do Stuff. But I don't have the energy and I feel like I'm shutting down more under pressure. And then the cycle continues and I feel even more depressed that I'm too useless to do anything.

Because time marches on, regardless, and I'm aware every day I spend in this hole is another day with a loved one lost. Another day of my life gone, possible chances or opportunities wasted. I don't want to regret things years from now. But I don't know that forcing myself to do things is the solution either. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with it?

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