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Well I have been prescribed methadone for 10 years, started at 100ml due to my high level of tolerance due to 15 years use of heroin.I used to be a mule so had ample amount of it.I decided to try stopping using so came to UK, knowing no dealer or other addicts there and decided to kick bad habit.From 100ml slowly decreasing now I am on 24ml.I never had any problems with my doctor, never lost script, never lost methadone, I felt great never sick and free from heroin bad habits.I have 3 children, the last one has cerebral palsy, and my doctor knows it.She need constant care.Sadly this weekend I lost my script while picking up my son at school.I contacted doctor and he told me he could not reissue one.Called my key worker who contacted doctor receptionist who told him that the school contacted them to tell them they had found my script but posted it.So he told me to go back to doctor and have new script done.I ran there because it was already 5.30 pm and soon close.Also it was Friday!!!
The doctor still refused to re script me, knowing I was a single mother with a child with cerebral palsy!!!!
He told me he wanted prescription so had to wait for post...
I went in state of chock, ran home and went into deep chock.My breath my mind was racing and felt like injecting some heroin.The first time since 12 years, after being stable for so long my mind was flooded with fear of not being able to take care of my kids, and had to find someone to take care of them.For the first time my kids felt something was wrong with me.I had to tell their uncle to take care of them.Then raced around trying to find heroin to last until script run out.Because I don't have any dealer contact so I got cheated out my last money, and had to take codeine pill.Now all my kids family and friends knows I am a junky.I feel like crap and lost.It is Sunday and I feel so depressed I want to kill myself.How sad i was so well...
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