Does anyone feel hopless?

I'm sorry it's so late but I've only just read this... you are really not alone and I definitely know how you feel on this one... it's something I'm going through myself at the moment and have been for a year or so due to my dad having a mini-stroke in October about a year and a half ago... It's just the fear that it will happen again even though he's on a lot of medication to prevent it from happening again...

Although I never feel suicidal and never have been I do think that my family, friends and boyfriend would be better off without me as I feel like a waste of space half the time, and all I seem to do is cry and get annoyed at myself for being so distraught over practically nothing... I really hate what I've become and don't know how to get out of this state of mind... I tried St. John's Wort which did make me feel happy but I stopped taking it as I thought I could cope without it, but obviously that didn't plan out so well lol...

So today I went to the doctor and talked to her about my depression and anxiety and how I'm having trouble sleeping etc., in which she got me to fill out a depression / anxiety test which proved 100% I am clinically depressed (which of course I already knew), but it made me feel worse because my mom came with me and she obviously heard about the statement that I think people would be better off without me... I just can't stand feeling alone anymore and upset, or having these shitty thoughts keep going through my mind that aren't true and I've tried to be strong for too long and I can't do it anymore... I've finally come to accept that I need real help which is what I'm going to get now after being prescribed Sertraline... Tonight will be the first night so hopefully it will do me some good and I can finally get a decent night's sleep without waiting to go to bed at stupid hours just so that I know I will go to sleep...

But apparently depression is something you never get rid of, it is something that can stay with you for the rest of your life but even if you do get rid of it, it will always come back... I'm sorry to say it but it is a possibility but just keep on your feet, keep your head held high and don't stop fighting, because it is something you can beat easier the next time around...

hello artsycaaat ,

How are you ? Im back to my old happy self again !! thanks to meds and time !! gosh i never want to be in that dark place ever again ,,plz take care and reply if u feel the need to talk xxx

Heya,

I'm just starting the higher dose of 100mg and I can totally relete to your feeling of being hopefully, for the first 2-3 weeks I felt like a total failure, having been signed off work, I felt SO guilty because my partner had to carry on working whilst I sat at home, I still do feel incredibly guilty most days because he's working his butt off and I just sit here trying to get myself better.. That feeling does die down though, after the 3rd week for me I started noticiing a difference in my behaviour, usually I get stressed out by anything even the little things will stress me out and my anxiety will kick in and i'll start getting sweaty and annoyed for no reason, that's pretty much gone now! - The only stuff that's still with me is the negative thoughts and the feeling that it's a CONSTANT BATTLE in your head, the "no dont bother whats the point" versus the "DO IT!" - Listen to the do it! - You have to stick with it.

I was being typical and thought the tablets weren't working by week 2, but now i'm on my 4th week I can start to feel the effects, I do have off days though, im sure you do too, we just have to stick together and positive thinking there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and depression is NOT a life long illness, it is a temporary set back - it will end, and you will beat it

Hi, I was hopeless I was living in a TREADMILL, day after day of sadness, pretending I was fine, it was getting harder and harder to hide. I hated living. And I started drinking everyday trying to relax after yet another horrible day at work. Then stop drinking thinking this will solve the problem, and I started to take as many pills as I could to forget who I was to stop the head. After a year I was worse, then tried severall treatments and a month started SERTRILENE, and MY LIFE CHANGED , I woke up from a nightmare, I was missing in life, the voice stopped. I thought it was normal feeling depressed and that It was me that was causing those feelings it was my fault i could not cope like others, i was not positive enough, and now I know it was not me really, was the SEROTONINE DEFFICIENCY, that was driving me mad . I was trying to get up everyday and failed, I really tried so hard and could not understand why I could be in the best place with people I loved, and inside thinking I hate my life, I just want to get high to forget I exist. was blocked ... and so frustrated like I could not enjoy good moments, as I knew later I would be suffering lone, and thinking people are getting tired of me, will end up alone, etc.... but SERTRALINE WORKS , i am scared to stop taking them now, sometimes i can feel the switch is turning back on...and get nervous. The doctor told me I would be for a while on them and then little by little trying to come of it and see how I respond, otherwise I will have to take it for a long time.... I AM SCARED OF WALKING WITHOUT CRUTCHERS... but I am LUCID now, i think can make it, IF I CAN LIVE IN HELL SURELY IT HAS TO BE EASIER TO LIVE IN HEAVEN , we can live on the other side of the fence and Sertrilene will help you cross, THE MISSING SEROTONINE IS BACK AND SAVED MY LIFE

I am so glad ive found this forum, I've been taking setraline for around three years now. i did come off it for a while but as it makes me feel so sickly in the beginning i find it easier just to stay on it and change the level of dosage.

At the moment i am taking 150mg for my panic attacks, setraline is amazing but I think that ive been making myself quite poorly as i still drink on this medication. If i have a few drinks im fine but to much makes me panicky again and i feel depressed, i never really put the two together until reading all your posts, so thankyou x

Hi everyone, just thought i would say my bit... i have been on sertraline for 18 months or so and it really helped me.... it took about a month to kick in properly.. but it definitely helped.... I had depression due to stress at work and being attacked by a group of youths and ended up with a fractured arm. Horrific !! i am coming off them slowly i cut the dose down to half for a month and then half again.. i feel a bit weird off them its been about a week all told without anything at all. Has anyone else come off them and if so what did you experience ? I feel very Irritable and snappy and sweating and the runs but not too bad.....