Does anyone feel like this?
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Im in a rough patch here. I have eye ailments..i cant write them out they scare me too much. It is what it is and i know that but better for me leave it at that. Ok so i was looking at these new led streetlights and i see a fuzzy haze around the actual light. Yes i have already seen specialist and am being watched. ***I Have diagnoses please lord dont write any. This is the issues i was at the eye doc specialist two weeks ago for some testing.but i didnt know to say anything. I have one really bad habit here im terrified to say everything i feel is happening to me. I let the testing speak for itself. It does or has so far. Reason being specialist like to cut and do stuff that can or can work ***and like a total idiot i have been in the forum for people with eye issues and of course they provde the scariest crap i ever read. I Have mentioned to the doctor i see weird. Thats all i could get out of my mouth. Because i have optic nerve pallor (amongst other diagnosis) thats going to happen. Anyway here is my problem. No one wants to hear about my eye stuff, its scary no magic and its draining. Thats how i feel anyway. My Husband writes it off or he is gets antsy hes guy himself with certain things and medical stuff is not his thing at all. He gets impatient or ansy or scared but he doesnt have any anxiety disorders, or at least not to my knowledge. He tends to get short tempered or changes the topic. He okay otherwise but not comforting for me on this one. Now if someone told me i go to the dr. Honestly i was there within the last month. I have to go every six months now, used be every months. I feel guilty here for being scared. What is this? My problem obviously is im panicky and thinking the worst scenario but at the same time i have issues some no science fix for yet and want it all to just be okay. im feeling guilty for worrying about myself..does this make sense at all to anyone? Its weird
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lisalisa67
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Just wanted to add i have mentioned weird stuff that has transoired in the past and was told "yes i imagine you would see weird with what you have". Its not like im a total idiot and have never said anything. So that plays on my mind. I dont want to incurr the doctor to do a procedure if its not needed either. And i feel i teeter on that very fine line. I never ever should have went on those eye forums and i knew that but i did??
helen20833 lisalisa67
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You are not an idiot at all, Lisa! You're an intelligent, kind erudite woman and you'd better believe it.
Honey, we have all gone on Forums we should have kept well clear of, at some time or other. We're only human and when we're scared we seek reassurance and at times it might be in the wrong place but..but we've all done it!
you have frightened yourself. I understand that. It's horrible being afraid. Please dearest, try to calm yourself. You strike me as a strong woman where others needs are concerned. Be strong, be kind to yourself now. If I could wish for anything one thing right at this moment it would be to hug you and hold you until you felt "safe" again!!!
Much love, Helen xxx
lisalisa67 helen20833
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helen20833 lisalisa67
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Oh honey! Why should you feel guilty about feeling scared? It's the most natural thing in the world when we are worried about our eyes! When i was told I had a blood clot behind one of my eyes I nearly peed my pants and that's the truth. It was only self preservation of dignity that kept me upright.
I truly understand that voicing fears out loud makes them "real" to us. But ignorance is not bliss. Not knowing ignites imagination and we all know where that leads, don't we? Only when we know what the issue is can we deal with it.
Now you know, don't you,that if you cannot voice your fears then you must write them down for the eye doctor? Do not fear the worst dearest. If you cannot "talk" to anyone about this please private message me!!!!!!
I hug you dear, my heart hugs you xxx
cia42277 lisalisa67
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Dear Saint Lisa.....yes, that is how many of us see you. Your halo does not need to be polished at all times.
Let me speak about thoughts and fears. Speaking them out loud will not make them more real. It is important to vent all to at least one person you trust. You need to get those fears, terrors, worries, OUT OF YOUR BODY.
Speaking them out loud releases the stored up energy behind them. Holding them in to grow and fester and get nastier and nastier, will not cause them to be real either, BUT it can convince the body they are real, and so physical symptoms happen. Not really real, but real to your mind and body.
Confession (speaking things our loud that need to be released) is not only good for the soul, but for the mind, emotions and body.
Sit down and give you body a real praise session. I do this all the time. Right now, as you know, I am dealing with cirrhosis, soooo, I spend time every day talking to my liver and praising it for the amazing job it has done and is still doing hour after hour, after day, after week, after month after year. I pat and kiss my hand or arm. I remember to treat my body the same way I would treat the body of a lover. After all we are to love others as we (first) love ourselves. And of course, I love you darling girl, and I believe in you.
helen20833 cia42277
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Oh Cia
Love you dear !
Wonderful post!
As you know I regularly tell my symptoms to f**k off and leave me be. Very therapeutic, lol. I sit and brush my head in the evening. It's lovely and soothing and energizes blood flow. Any port in a storm, eh?
lisalisa67 cia42277
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helen20833 lisalisa67
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My mom always viewed a lit candle as a sign of hope. A light in the darkness. I use vanilla candles ( reminds me of home and Austria, sob)
Tonight I shall light two and place them in the window, One for you, Lisa, one for Cia...My "heart" friends
cia42277 helen20833
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Isn't it wonderful to know that even if we trip and fall, someone is there to catch us?
cia42277 lisalisa67
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Actually, we are all fine but there are times we forget that...but we have each other to remind us. Ain't it great!!!!!!
cia42277 helen20833
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Now you did it...activated my tear ducts.
What a gal. I can see those candles in the window. My tear ducts may be putting in overtime all day.
helen20833 cia42277
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Lghting a candle in the dark of a window when the earth appears still, when it is quiet as though the world is holding its breath, it feels very spititual even if one is not religious. Many years ago, when there were "troubles " in Poland, our family would light a candle every night for them.
helen20833 cia42277
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Hang on a minute! Before I do any catching In wanna know how much you weigh! I've got a bad back, doncha know....well, I've got a bad everything from the ankle up...and a new pair of feet wouldn't go amiss, come to think of it
cia42277 helen20833
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467 1/2 pounds.
I just lost a pound...took my wig off. 
Try to get cute on me, will ya'?
helen20833 cia42277
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Roared with laughter! Excuse me, I'll have you know I am cute, trying doesn't come into it. It's a bold faced lie to say I am anything other than adorable....or is that horrible ? ...or could it be unbearable? ....Or..
cia42277 helen20833
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helen20833 cia42277
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Aw dear Me! Lmao.....?? quick...someone.. anyone...pass the tissues
...hand me the Pampers....don't know which end to mop up first....
Aw Cia you rock!
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cia42277 helen20833
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Thank ya', Honey Girl.