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Does the darkness ever go away?

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susieQ07630
susieQ07630

I have been struggling with depression with some time now, going through a therapy, taking Fluoxetine and doing all the things they tell you that help: exercising, socializing, minfulness etc. I just don't think any of this is working! I feel so sad and lonely all the time. I feel like being in the darkness and there is no way out. Does this ever go away?

I feel like I have lost all my friends, nobody cares. Nobody notices me any more. I am invisible. All I have is sadness. How do you get out of the darkness?

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  • element
    element susieQ07630

    Posted

    Hello Susie.

    Regarding your situation, I'd have to say that I'm in sort of the same situation. Feeling trapped with no way out of the viscous cycle that depression can bring. The difference however is that you've attempted to rectify your current state, with more socialising etc, with hope of betterment. I personally can't even get myself out of bed in a morning.

    So a step in the right direction I suppose, all you need to do is perceiver and battle on.

    Is it that nobody notices you based on your forced persona/actions, or they simply can't empathise with you. For me it's the second case, even my twin brother doesn't get why I'm the way I am.

    Carry on doing you.

    Moreover, it

    • susieQ07630
      susieQ07630 element

      Posted

      Thank you for your reply. I do keep trying but the truth is that I don't feel any better for it so what's the point. I am at a point now that I cannot find anything to do that would make me feel better. I struggle to work as I cannot concentrate and have no motivation whatsoever.

      I feel like I put on a mask everyday for everyone around me. Nobody knows how I feel. Nobody ever gets in touch with me, I feel like it's me who always makes an effort. Nobody cares about me. If I simply disappeared nobody would actually notice.

      I have decided to start dealing with depression about 9 months ago and honestly don't feel like I have achieved much. 

      I don't think people really do understand what you are going through not unless they have experienced it themselves. They probably think you are just having a bad day and tomorrow is going to be fine. I am sorry you are struggling too. What have you been doing to help yourself?

    • element
      element susieQ07630

      Posted

      To be quite honest I really haven't had the strength ir will power to do anything to better my situation. All I do is sleep and keep my head burrowed in either the my computer monitor or playstation, i feel safe and comfortable in the moment but ultimately I know that these actions won't help. As put by Jim, there isn't even really a guarantee of other activities helping, I'm sure you can vouch for that.

      I just can't stop thinking about (why me?), sitting my exams feeling the same.

  • jim48507
    jim48507 susieQ07630

    Posted

    Everything we read about exercising and socializing when depressed is dead wrong.  Nothing lifts depression except effective anti depressant medication.  I'm permanently depressed and nothing I do does a damned thing to lift my spirits.  It's a chemical imbalance.  Not something that can be excercised away or mitigated with socializing or activity.  I hate socializing.  I hate excersising.  I hate doing things.  I am solely denpending on anti depressants.  If they don't work I have noo reason to live.
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