Does this sound like a Mixed 'state' or 'episode'?

So I've failed miserably on SSRI's over the past two years.  I've tried eight different drugs between ssris/snris/and a few off labels.  I was taking Lamictal 12.5mg for 6 days, and around day 3, an all too familiar feeling hit me.  I was in bed, exhausted, yet extremely agitated and almost crawling out of my skin.  I had to work, so I forced a MG of Xanax down my throat and it cleared up.  Fast forward a few days later, and for almost 12 hours, I cried on and off.  I felt like I had to exercise to get some of it out of me, so I'm just holding as heavy as weights as possible while crying/agitated.  Nothing could get the feeling out.  After I exercised, the agitation decreased somewhat, but this absolute soul crushing depression was there.  Couldn't stop crying, feeling cut off and void of all positive feelings, yet my mind wouldn't stop thinking of "S".  Told my parents to check me into a hospital if it got any worse, because I was starting not to trust myself.  This has happened when starting Zoloft & Effexor also.  Prozac put me into an almost crazed rage, luckily I stopped it in time.  I talked to my psych immediately and have an appointment coming up.  He is the last person to just throw labels around, and he said, "Stop the Lamictal until we see each other, you were on such a low dose that we could easily jump to 25 if we wanted and start over, but what I think you're experiencing here is Mixed Episodes.  They're the worst/most intense kind of mood episode to have.  Can you come x?"

Does this sound familiar at all?  Any answers are GREATLY appreciated.

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