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There is this blotch or splotch thing on my inner thigh, about the size of a fingernail but with really faded borders, kind of how an irritated mosquito bite might look. The splotch changes colour depending on the lighting, but usually is between a shade of pink and red. When I look at it it sometimes looks brown but if I take a picture it comes out as a light pink colour.
It changes colour and lightens a bit if I press on it, but it is a bit raised and feels different from the skin around it. When I pick at it, it looks really irritated and the skin around it turns blotchy and red. It almost feels hard, like something embedded in my skin, which is really weird and freaks me out a lot.
I don`t remember exactly how long it has been here for...I would guess maybe a year or a bit shorter. Which makes me really scared that if it is something serious, it already got the chance to spread everywhere and is probably in my brain and lungs and bones and everything. I never got it checked out, even though I have had severe anxiety about it before, because my family told me not to worry about it, and that it looked normal. Since everyone knows I have really bad health anxiety (like a headache being brain cancer or an achy neck meaning I have meningitis and have to go the ER right away) they usually shrug off my concerns.
Plus, since I gained weight I have a lot of stretch marks and veins and such stuff on my thighs so I thought for a while maybe it was related to that. But it definitely does not look the same., so I think I was wrong to think they were related.
Does this sound like melanoma D: What freaks me out is I am pretty sure there was never a mole or anything there, and this does not exactly look like a mole, but for all I know there was a mole there and I just never thought about it or noticed it. I am spiralling in anxiety about it right now.
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