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tina89895
tina89895

Hi folks

I haven't been on here for a while and here I am again after the weekend. Didn't know what to call this one. Back at work today after a emotional week off. Morning went ok, the afternoon I was faced with an argumentative abusive customer sorry to say can be part and parcel of my job. dealt with the situation reported it to my manager then lost it. Sat on the floor in the toilets balling my eyes out very distressed and wanting to harm myself to try and control it. Ended up packing up and going home. I have been very emotional been out for a walk listening to the birds before it got dark. Still keep bursting into tears. I wondering should I take some diazepam I;ve got 5mg tablets, should one be enough to help calm me down. I am trying not to drink alcohol so it's one of the other. 

thanks again for all your support.

Tina x

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  • ethan2000
    ethan2000 tina89895

    Posted

    Hi tina sry to hear you had a bad day I hope u pick ur self up....... try not to worry about things so much u will be fine..
  • Chik07
    Chik07 tina89895

    Posted

    Hello stranger 😀 been awol for a while, more bad news, sister in law of 41 years old was murdered, stabbed etc by an ex... Been all over the place, thinking life pointless etc etc, made me cry and go a bit phyco about wanting my dad back :-(

    sorry your having bad time :-( it's just soooooooo hard to cope with, have been thinking about you but just not been upto even typing on here. And I was so good last time we chatted! Goes to show how quick things can change, and I hope you will soon have some good days 😀 if diazipan will calm you down take it, I have been having zopiclone most nights recently. Xxxx

    • tina89895
      tina89895 Chik07

      Posted

      Oh chik am so sorry about your sister in law. It must be awful and bring all those feelings back to the forefront with vengeance.

      As the weather is improving I would be out riding and have the wind rushing through my hair. I did wonder how you were getting on too. I haven't been on for a while either but things aren't that brilliant. Yes diazepam has been taken, so feeling more chilled out. Hope you're getting the benefit from zopiclone I didn't get much help from them.

      Just remember if you need to scream and shout or swear you can pm me.

      You take care and ensure you look after yourself. XXX

    • Chik07
      Chik07 tina89895

      Posted

      Thank you. I am passed the shouting stage, just feel drained like there is no life left in me. I don't even want to ride, stayed in bed all weekend, so exhausted from feeling so down and sad! Good you feel chilled now, hopefully you will sleep. Not sure how I will face a funeral, body not released yet as they arrested the guy but his defence may insist on another post mortum, so awfull!!! Happened 2 weeks ago. Sleep tight, just taken my pill 😉 hope you have a Better day at work tomorr xxx
    • David_21660
      David_21660 Chik07

      Posted

      Hi Chik,

      No words can take away the pain, but we do send love.

      Regards,

      David

    • katecogs
      katecogs Chik07

      Posted

      Jeeez Chik ....... as David says, no words indeed can take that pain away.  I'm so sorry for you all.

      K x

    • Chik07
      Chik07 katecogs

      Posted

      Thank you, rough night with nightmares and images of the poor girl :-( the pain her mum is in is awfull! (Mother in law) is husbands sister, so where as husband was strong for me he is understandably not so strong now. Xxx
    • katecogs
      katecogs Chik07

      Posted

      What a nightmare for you all ..... your poor mother-in-law, to lose a child, whatever age, is devastating.  Am wishing you and your family lots of love, strength and as much peace as you can find.

      K x

  • katecogs
    katecogs tina89895

    Posted

    Hi Tina

    Are you allowed to slap them lol cheesygrin

    Oh those emotions ...... they're so near the top and ready burst at the slightest thing when you're feeling in a vulnerable state, aren't they.  I remember going through a very stressed and emotional time and someone blared their car horn at me when I was driving, and I had to pull off the road as I couldn't control the tears.  It does make me cross to hear how some people 'sound' off at others without them giving a thought for that person and their background.

    You're bound to react like that, and why not.  It's fine, just let it out if you need to ... there's no shame it having a dam good cry, sitting on the loo floor or not :-)

    Have you tried breathing exercises - they're good at helping to control things.  Going out for a walk is good too as well as vigoursly exercising to get rid of the stress/anxiety that's built up.

    Some people just don't think when they start arguing and become abusive.

     

    • tina89895
      tina89895 katecogs

      Posted

      Oh I so wish i could slap some of them, even swear back but customer service doesn't allow that. You can only ask them to stop and leave rtf he building, security can't even physically throw them out unless they get violent. Fun job hey. I've been trying breathing exercises but the diazepam won.

      Normally I would be ok but I seem to be going down hill again or just one of those week or month with a big blip. 😕

    • katecogs
      katecogs tina89895

      Posted

      Ah well, it's good to imagine giving them a backhander isn't it 

      Taking diazepam, breathing or anything that helps calm you is good.  Yes those down blips come and go quite regular don't they - I could always feel it coming on.

      My daughter had to deal with an abusive customer the other week at her works who refused to leave.  After the confrontation she was in floods of tears too and she doesn't even have depression.  It feels like a personal attack and you're bound to become emotional about it, especially when you're not well.

      I remember when my bully boss laid into me once and I fought back ...... afterwards I retreated to the loos and just broke down.  I'd had months of her bullying everyone, especially me, so eventually I told them to stuff the job and I'm now a lady of leisure :-) Don't need childish playground games in my life.  

      Not saying that you can leave your job, mind ;-)

      Perhaps when you get an abusive customer, just imagine them wearing a clowns outfit, bit shoes and a red nose - might make you smile :-)

  • tina89895
    tina89895

    Posted

    Well that's me had a restless night, loads of dreaming the final one involved work. I was happy dealing with a member of the public when a punch up started and the security guard was getting a kicking. I woke up in a panic heart going like the clappers. Good start to the day. X
  • David_21660
    David_21660 tina89895

    Posted

    Hope you have a better day Tina. Goes without saying the last thing you need is some moron thinking they can take their own failings as a human bean out on someone else, especially our Tina.

    I was in a similar situation, but have decided to retire from the rat race (I suppose you can call it that) and do me own thing!

    This has been made easier by giving up the crap, starting with the TV, smoking, drinking, eating crap and (did I say drinking? Well in moderation!) trying to be more relaxed.

    Anyway enough of me!

    We're with you and hope you have a better day! If not, it may be worth looking at changing those thingswe can, to what YOU want.

    Over and out! Later!

    David

  • Chik07
    Chik07 tina89895

    Posted

    Hi Tina, hope you had a better few days at work xxx
    • tina89895
      tina89895 Chik07

      Posted

      Hi how are you bearing up. I'm lying in bed feeling sorry for myself as I had a back tooth out today. My nose still feels numb shame it couldn't numb the brain. Lol. Ended up in a state last night too. I will have to get the Samaritans on speed dial.

      Hope you managed to get out and get some sunshine even if it is just sitting out, a bit of natural warmth does you the world of good so they say. X

    • Chik07
      Chik07 tina89895

      Posted

      Numb brain would be good 😊 yeah am too lying in bed feeling sorry for myself! New horse who is only young, was lame on front feet and yesterday had X-rays and has beginning of arthritis, so prob cannot compete or jump him.... Life sucks. Ouch it's horrid having a tooth out and getting that numb fussy feeling. Hope you get some sleep, have gone for alcahol tonight and a bit woozy now 😀 good night xxx
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