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Don't Know What It Feels Like To Be Normal Anymore!

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rchrbl
rchrbl

So, my anxiety has completely taken over my life. Constant panic attacks, chronic muscle tension, stiffness, derealization, depersonalization, constant dizziness. Constantly checking my heart rate. breathing difficulty. I haven't left the house in over 4 months other than going to the doctor and seeing a psych nurse for medication.

I am scared to workout and I miss it so much, I miss dating and making human connections. I just feel stuck. My body is so stiff and crampy, dizzy and out of whack. I don't even know what it feels like to be normal anymore. I am panicking at every sensation, I am scared to even eat at time because I swear I will have an allergic reaction to everything. This anxiety has become really really bad. I feel like im going crazy and losing my mind.

I think im going to die at any given moment. This is no way to live! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just idk anymore.

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  • Guest
    Guest rchrbl

    Posted

    Hello! Your not alone!! I just started having muscle stiffness/ tightness on my leg. Like I can't lift it when I walk, or it hurts and feels heavy. Is that how it feels to you too? I've felt almost all your symptoms.  I've been dealing with this for about a year now and I'm starting to feel a lot better slowly . I feel like I feel the symptoms more when I focus on them. I know this is easier said than done but please, please try to keep your mind distracted. Try working out! Don't let this get the best of you. Now that you know it's all anxiety just know that it can't kill you. It's all in your mind. Try to see if maybe you can start to do activities you used to love doing. And although it can be dipilitaing I know, try your best to get out of the house! Take walks, read, listen to relaxing music and try drinking chamomile tea at night. It helps me relax! 

  • katherine993
    katherine993 rchrbl

    Posted

    Hey. I'm going to share my experience with you and hope it will help you. 4 years ago I started having panic attacks just out the blue my first one was driving in a stop light everything started going white. I thought I had to eat maybe....with time I realized this was a panic attack. It got so bad I couldn't leave my house nor talk to people I couldn't look them in their eyes while they talked. The lights of a store gave me anxiety and made me have a panic attack. So what I did.. I started taking maca pills I don't know if it played a part in my getting better but I do know it is good for you and I started working out at home. This alone won't help you over come this. What I feel really helped my was my strength. I literally pushed myself so hard to go outside everyday a little further each day. I told myself it is mental and I can overcome this. I became positive every time I would think of it I would think of something else to get my mind of it. It might sound silly but I would talk to myself when the anxiety started kicking in and tell the anxiety F U you cannot control me and fight the panic attack till eventually after a year it went away.. I didn't have an episode for years. Till now I started getting them again maybe because I'm am stressed with. Work and stuff I'm trying to fight this as much as I can. It is terrible living with this people are ignorant to this they think it's not a big deal but we know it's very powerful and we are miserable living this way. No one can help you but yourself remember you are strong and you can beat this. I did it once I know it's possible with just positive thinking to overcome it

  • michelle_58718
    michelle_58718 rchrbl

    Posted

    My heart goes out to you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You can beat this. Your already taking a huge step with going to the doctor and getting medication. So many people wont even do that! Talk to your doctor and make sure your being honest about what your feeling, you may need to change medication or if you just started a new medication you could just be experiencing the side effects. Fight for your self! Your head will feed you anxious thoughts MAKE yourself do something to distract the thoughts. Iv found coloring and writing to really help when I'm experiencing my anxiety. One more thing you are not crazy! Your human and EVERYONE has their struggles and I mean everyone.  

  • lisa25795
    lisa25795 rchrbl

    Posted

    I have to push myself to do things ! When I first started getting panic attacks 20 years ago I wanted to lock myself away and sleep all the time as I felt that's the only way I felt better !! I hope you get the help you need !! I have my bad days and I understand what you saying about feeling normal and carefree ??

  • Health1001
    Health1001 rchrbl

    Posted

    I know how you feel and it WILL get better.

    All my life i had spouts of dizziness, Derealisation, Vision problems, Head pressure, Head Zaps, I was convinced of Brain Tumours, Heart attacks, Passing out, Losing my mind.

    It put me on a bit of a destructive path and I made some bad decisions which lead to stress and guilt. 

    This is when it all peaked and i begn having panic attacks again a few months ago... I knew at this point it was Anxiety and instead of pushing it down like i had done for years i accepted it. 

    I called a counsellor and got in pretty much immediatley as I paid private. First session I gave every worry I had. Cried my eyes out. And let it all out... I didnt hold anything back even things id be ashamed to admit...

    Within a week i was literally back to my normal self... All physical symptoms went. It was like magic... I still have ups amd downs from time to time but I cannot stress enough how good it is to actually speak to someone and let it all out... It pushes the weight of anxiety and fear out of your system. 

    Know it will pass

    Know it can get better

    Stay Busy

    When you panic LAUGH at yourself

    And Talk Talk talk about it until you cry it all out.

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