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I have been battling depression for nearly 10 years now. It can make me very moody and angry. I got it under control in 2013 when my doctor prescribed me Bupropion. I still have my good and bad days however. I am getting hit hard with retroactive jealousy questions from my wife of 20 years. The questions she asks are loaded, in that no matter what I say, the result will be upsetting. My wife is my first true love. I dated other women years before her. Nothing lasted for more than 3 months if that. Those relationships didn't work and they lead me down the road to meeting her. She can't grasp this when I tell her this. She thinks I had some deep emotional involvement with them. Over the years she always asked me question about the people I dated before her. I would dance around the questions, because I no it would upset her. Finally last year she was really angry, I caved and told her a little about the people I dated. Nothing was serious, I did not fall in love with them. Because of me opening up, it has lead to spurts of retroactive jealousy that causes her to resent me at times. I don't know how to handle this any longer. It is really bad now to the point where she thinks about leaving me. I am lost, hurt, and falling back deeper into depression. I have nobody to talk to about it. I feel like I have committed a crime, because I dated people before I met her. I love my wife more than anything in this universe and I don't want to lose this marriage.
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