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Basically I suffered from shyness for a long long time, but it's starting to get worse. I have a boyfriend and a job and find it extremely difficult to communicate with his family and customers. I even find it hard to properly talk to my grandparents, aunties and cousins. I don't speak at all to my boyfriends family and whenever I'm near them I get extremely nervous and go shaky, with a lump in my throat, feeling like I could burst into tears. I constantly erry after any sort of communication with anyone except my close family, like have I said something stupid? have I made a fool of myself?
When I was at school I avoided every situation where I was suppose to do a presentation to the class, and other students use to pick on me a lot because I was very anxious. My friends use to fall out with me because I never really spoke.
I also get these horrific stomach cramps, that only seem to come on when I get nervous, which I saw a doctor about and got diagnosed with ibs. I also suffer from extreme ocd where I have to think about my past actions, for example what I have worn every day for the last week, what I did at what exact time, also rethinking conversations and what exactly was said. I keep a diary of the outfits I wear every day, just incase I ever think back
its getting so unbearable, I really cannot cope. I dread work everyday because I work in retail and I just can't talk to customers, my mind goes blank and I just can't find anything to say.
i would like to see a doctor but so afraid they would just say I'm being silly and there's nothing wrong. I really don't know what to do, my family have suggested to see a counsellor, but I have had counselling before and I just don't find it helps very much as I can't open up to them as much as I should
please help me,I'm really don't know what to
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