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Rang for a doctors appointment this morning at 8.30 and was pleased when I finally managed to get through. This changed when I was told all the appointments for today had already gone but I could have one in 2 weeks time!
This has plunged me back into the 'I am not worth it' feeling. Self care is so difficult for me but when I make an effort I am kicked back again. Why can't doctors surgeries understand this? Why does no one understand what this feels like to people like us with depression?
I am back to brooding about dying alone in my flat unwanted and unloved again with the feeling that no one cares.
The question is do I feel strong enough to keep pushing for an appointment or let it lie now. It is a physical problem but maybe it will go away if I ignore it. I can't do this torture at the moment.
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mike09523 hypercat
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Sorry to read your suffering so, could you afford a private appointment? Money talks I am afraid.
Hope you get sorted,
Mike.
srk904471 hypercat
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You are definitely cared and not alone.
Negative thinking only makes it worse.
hold onto inner fortitude and strength with whole of your being.
all shall be fine.
ann55375 hypercat
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tina89895 hypercat
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Hi it depends on how you really feel, my surgery have arranged telephone cal backs when I have been really distressed, or I have just gone in requesting to see the emergency doctor as I feel unsafe, I've been seen urgently, kept there until my crisis has subsided.
You look after yourself and don't be fobbed off by the receptionist I know they have a job to do but if you are desperate just turn up they can't tell you no they have a duty of care.
Hugs Tina. X
I'm now off for yet another fun road trip.
Crazycat hypercat
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I care hypercat and others do too so tomorrow you call the doctors again.
It is so tough when you feel so crappy and it's easier to let it fester but you called today and although the outcome wasn't as expected tomorrow is a new day and you're worth the effort.
Sending a giant hug and good thoughts your way xx
hypercat Crazycat
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Thank you Crazycat that is exactly what I wanted and needed to hear. I just don't know why self care is so difficult and why the system has to knock you back so much. I will try again as soon as I feel a bit more together and stronger though can't say that will be tomorrow. It will probably take me a few days before I can try again. I wish it didn't get to me this much.
On a brighter note am going out soon and will be passing another surgery round here so will go in and see if they are accepting new patients. They have much better reviews online than mine do. Thanks again. x
Crazycat hypercat
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No worries, we are all in this together 😀
I guess when our " cup is full " there is just no room left for the smallest of drops thusly making it difficult to exercise the self care we so desperately need plus it's harder when you feel or are alone.
Keep moving forward is all and no matter how long it takes xx
julia23547 hypercat
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please don’t ignore it hypercat, you are worth it, a million zillion times worth it. It’s your health and you know when you are struggling. And I care ...I’m sure others care about you too. Do you have others you can ring just to talk you through those really ‘unsafe’ moments. We have the Samaritans here in the UK. They really can be awesome to talk to when there is nobody else. Come on Hypercat....you have been there before!! You got this!! Xx
mike09523 hypercat
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Hi Julia,
I live in an "economic village", we are having 5,000 new dwellings built at the moment. Possibly 13,000 new comers to our village/town. My surgery are already feeling under seize and several doctors have mentioned moving on. Why don't they build the facilities at the same time as houses. Nightmare scenario,
Mike.
mike09523 hypercat
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Sorry- should be "eco village. " and "seige". Predictive text again.
maria19434 hypercat
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If your surgery is anything like mine ~ when i was at my lowest point and so desperate for help i told them i was having suicidal thoughts (I was) but if you are desperate it can guarantee you an appointment that day ~ was but true. Thinking of you. Kind regards
Adldiane hypercat
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Hello hypercat. Am I allowed to say that you are one of my favorite people😊? And it hurts me to see you down and suffering! Two weeks seems like a very long time when you need to see a doctor but that is the way of the world I guess. However, "scream" for yourself. Not literally but we do have to be our own advocate and it is difficult when we're low...at least it is for me. When I'm down with my depression I feel like I'm walking in quicksand. I don't have to tell you that we are here..we are your cheerleaders😀!! Keep calling the surgery/doc tell them you count too. Diane