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I've been telling myself that it's fine, I'm only young, what's a few drinks a night etc etc but I am not any happier for it. Every morning I wake up feeling massive guilt. Guilt that the promise I made to myself of not drinking that night - I broke. Guilt that I haven't lost weight this week like I promised myself I would. It's just a domino effect of failings.
So, I am a wife and a mother of 2 beautiful daughters (11 & 5).I am a stay at home mum and for the majority of it, have loved it but lately I am feeling very understimulated and seem to drink more in the evenings when feeling this way.
For about two years now I have been drinking most nights, I drink white wine - 1-2 bottles a night. I can go days without it but I do that reluctantly and when I do I seem to get quite emotional, feel very irritable and feel its a bit of a struggle. The thing is, I have alcohol in the house such as beer, vodka, brandy, shots etc but none of them phase me - I don't even acknowledge them there cos for me, it's just wine. So if I was an alcoholic, would I drink those too? I don't know?! I'm very confused about it all but I do know that I don't want to feel like this anymore. I've always presumed im ok cos I don't drink in the mornings, I don't have the shakes, I can say no to other alcoholic drinks etc.
If anyone could offer any advice or friendship on here - I'd be super grateful.
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