Emotional wreck
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Hi my story so far, im 56 , 2years ago after being 2 years free of bleeding , i had a postmenopausal bleed that lasted 5 days, went away had no other symptons, had an internal ultra sound, overies were clear , cervical lining was at 3. last year i had a pap smear all was normal, but in the past year i have been sick off and on with my bowels playing up and repeatedly been to doctor about they stated i had for some reason developed IBS, then about 4 months ago i got a stomach ache that hasnt gone away, also my breasts got real tender for a couple weeks with a slight white discharge for a couple days , then it suddenly dissappeared to be replaced by a UTI that cleared but still am running to toilet to pee a lot more an now bleeding for 4 weeks with a deep ache around my left overey . So far since then i have had an ultra sound with a finding of my cervical thickning of 8 .2 from 2 years ago when it was at 3, and one small fibroad found . Had an biopsy just yesterday at the hospital, which took awhile and was quite painf as my cervix was scared and closed. I now am awaiting the results of the biopsy, but am so scared and have not been able to stop crying for the past 3 weeks , as im scared that it is cancer and has spread because of my bowel problem and running to pee alot, its on my mind day and night, i cant seem to get it out of my mind that i have real bad cancer, feeling so down and have lost all interest in everything except laying in bed with a blanket on me or stareing at TV all day. Sorry for the long story but just needed to write it all down, im so scared of dying and having cancer
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lynda20916 Redbabz
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Sorry to learn you're going through this. I know from personal experience that being so afraid is really hard. You're so scared that you're very ill, and likely to die that it's all you can think about and the thoughts are terrifying. Then, there's the process of going to the doctor, getting tests scheduled, waiting on the test results and going back to the doctor. All the while that you're undergoing this the fear gets bigger, not smaller. For me, the uncertainty was the worst.
But once you find out what's going on your doctor will help you develop a treatment plan. You will be able to say to yourself, "Well, I've got this. Now what do I need to do to get rid of it?" Each person deals with their diagnosis in a different way. However, remember that you haven' been diagnosed with anything serious.
Know that there are many, many people on this site who are fighting their own battles who will be here to offer you comfort and practical support. xx
mcswiney Redbabz
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I know how you feel, I havee had several rounds of c diff, colonscopys egds and then for the last 4-5 months I have post menopausal spotti ng , black. severe weight loss, night sweats and I am 15 years post menopausal. did an internal ultrasound and said lining was thin, did a cervical biopsy but not uterine which is what I want. Been so fatigued , why don't they listen t me. I started out with some fungal infections. I too am scared to death.
Redbabz mcswiney
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mcswiney Redbabz
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They have not done a uterine biopsy, just cervical. I had surgery on my arm, c diff 5 times after the salmanala and have lost my muscle due to not being able to upperbody work out, I can do legs, but I am emancipated. total muscle waste, they just make you ru n from Dr/ to Dr. Just take basics, but aren't digging.