emotions are a roller coaster plz help.

most of time it is also like everything is in a haze. like i am in zombie mode unless i am doing something and concintraiting on something spicific. i would love suggestions to keep me buisy and help on why i dont want to eat alot i used to be HUGE eatier till this all happened

Hey hang on in there dont do anything stupid you have people that love you and you love your bf im sure ur parents want you and love u they just want to protect you .and its good talking to god if it helps

Hi chick, i would like to support youand tell you that you deserve to be taken very seriously, and this alone, an unsupportive environment will cause so much anxiety, along with all the growing up and hormone changes you are going thru and needing validation on. We all make mistakes as we...we ALL do..and judging yourself as often done in the religious spectrum can cause much confusion and anxiety as you question the validity and rationale of belief systems as well as worrying about disapointing family and those in religious circles, and sharing your independent thinking and loss of following a family or crowds approach to making sense of the world. Knowing that many within family environment you have bi polar and other mental health challenges also explains the cognition and thinking of those you have unknowingly depended on for your own cognition, which is a root cause of many cognitive distortions and mental health problems, in peoples lives throughout their lives. Those who dont challenge the lack of support in their own emotions and in their environments at younger ages like yours most often absorb and copy thinking patterns and behaviors around them that actually create poor mental health and problems with their emotions, along with lack of healthy support and role models for your personality and intelligence, that become so habit that it takes energy they may not have much of later in life to change these thought processes, often requiring medications to assist.

You are very fortunate as you are only 14, and are very bright, and reaching out for help from healthy people, outside your family, friends and religious circles, who most often are not able to be objective or fair to your independent and deeper needs. This is the cause of many like myself who either become more loner, seeking counseling on and off thruout their lives as they worked through autonomy from unsupportive or unhealthy family units and/or religious systems, or who also become involved in accepting groups who value diversity and creative expression. I understand very much what you are going thru as i have experienced this and want to support your need for a professional nonbiased counselor who has your back, that will help you to develop your fullest potential and offer you the support you are entitled to to mature and become who you are, with healthy outlets and hobbies or creative endeavors. I applaud you for reaching out, for being a conscious intelligent young person, who knows that as much as your family loves you, and you them, that it is healthy to find support for the anxiety and emotional support you need to grow up healthy.