Ended up in in ER
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Hi folks here's a brief story of what's been happening .
I started fluoxetine early February after the dreaded anxiety / depression creeped back
In . I got past the worst of the side effects
And witnessed some gd hours which led
To good days and so on
So just as I was beginning to find my feet
My long term partner of 15yr decides she's
No longer in love and quits
This has left myself devastated and has put me back to square 1
My anxiety is through the roof , my thoughts
Are doing overtime my mind is hell
I plucked up the courage to go see a Dr
And told him my current plight
I was crying as I did this
He gave me buspirone & zopiclone
To try and ease the suffering
Well ..... On fri I took my 1st buspirone
And by the end of fri night I felt amazing
I was on a high , it's as if all my pain worries
Thoughts had gone ..... Until sat
I took another pill this time I felt edgy
Shaky type feeling
I was at my mums house when this was
Happening and I knew a full blown panic
Episode was imminent
My heart was racing , I was confused
I was hot and shaking my heart got faster
And faster then it would try to slow down
Then miss beats then speed up
I honestly thought I was dying I was in such
A state an ambulance was called
I was assured I was not taking a heart attack as a heart tracer was graphed
I honestly thought I was going to die
Was this some some of reaction ?
Was the stress too much and this was
The out come ? Any idea
Thanks
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keith31290 daz101
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The tablets will have not fully kicked in yet hopefully they will help
daz101 keith31290
Posted
I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy
I thought I was gone
atom70049 daz101
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Sorry for what had happened to you. From your post it is clear that you are entering the stage of depression. What you are having now is anxiety attacks. Keep in mind that those medicines are not the solution for easing your problem. It all depends on your mind. If possible, give some details of your relation. Are you going to be separated? Will there be any chance of uniting in future?
Anyway, take things lightly. What you need now is relaxing. Try to go out and mixed up with your friends. Take deep breathings. Drink plenty of water, endulge yourself in some excercises. Be busy with some activities you like most. Never sleep late. Your body is fine and there will be no health issues. What you are feeling now is due to the anxiety only. Stop the medication, instead, try to controll your mind. Say STOP to your mind when you start thinking ablut something not good. Your health depends on your mind and the mind can be controlled by you. Good luck
daz101 atom70049
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Right now my head is all over the place , I've started questioning life
I'm finding this experience similar to that of a death . It's so intense and constantly
On my mind . I find myself going through scenarios , conclusions etc
I'm also getting paranoid for some reason . We have a 3yr old together
And a house we are still living together as she knows my situation
Whether this is a gd or bad thing I don't know . It's like reassurance
Just knowing she's there it can get
Awkward at times . It's a living hell
Knowing that she doesn't want me
And the inevitable will eventually
Happen . I'm sleeping on the sofa
And getting very little at that
This to me is the worst possible ever
Situation I have ever been in
Life is so cruel
keith31290 daz101
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Been through this and came out the other side ok ! You will to.. Life is hard but things happen for a reason.
It will take time to get thinking again with a straight head but I gtee you will get there !
daz101 keith31290
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At this moment in time all seems doomed , this is unreal I've never
Dealt with such despair . I'm looking
Things up to try and understand what
Is actually happening . It's like a bad dream and soon I will wake up
keith31290 daz101
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It really does just take time I have been in your situation my mrs left after 8 years saying she wasn't in love with me anymore she left there and then ! She told me she was pregnant 3 weeks later by someone else
You will be fine
daz101 keith31290
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Having been with some one for so long it is so so hard to understand
When they say it's over
It all sounds unreal after all you've loved that person and grew into such
A relationship shared things , lived
Together , holidays etc and most notably they've been your lover
Soul mate and best friend
With each passing day I'm still
Wondering why and going over and over things time and time again
You get yourself into such a routine
And now its all up in the air
The future just now seems very bleak
I honestly don't know how to come to terms with this .