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I know you wonderful ladies have heard this countless times but I really have had enough of feeling this way.
My periods have been hit and miss for a while. My Mirena Coil is due to be replaced next year and I've been using Vagifem pessaries for a few years, twice a week. Several months ago, I started getting pains in the ovary region that would be followed eventually by a short period. I wouldn't bleed much but it would go on for about two weeks.
A few months ago, I started with the tender breast feeling that I used to get before a period, along with a tightness with breathing. These symptoms I've had before so I recognised them as pre-menstrual. I thought.."here we go". A few days later, I'd bleed a little for again up to two weeks. Now, days after finishing, the breast tenderness comes back, along with a little backache at the bottom of my back. This has happened yet again and I've slightly bled until today when it's a lot more.
I'm absolutely terrified something serious is wrong. Everyday, all day, it's on my mind. I get angry when I go to the toilet and the fear is unbelievable. I'm so scared I don't even know how I'll get to the doctors to discuss this. I worry about my cervix, womb and ovaries. The anxiety is too much. I have a loving and very supportive husband and I'm sick of him having to hear me worry over this so I shut down sometimes. Everyone has everyday worries and problems to deal with and this is overriding my life.
I refuse to Google anything as that would physically and mentally make me feel worse than I do already. I am terrified all the time and I can't take much more of this. I know I sound dramatic here but I don't know where to turn and what to believe. Everything ends with me in the worst case scenario because I'm so sure that I have something that terrible. I don't know what to do anymore. Is this normal? Does anyone else feel or has felt this way? I'm at a complete loss. I'm so down and fed up. I could have had a Hysterectomy years ago but I chose not to thankfully as our third son was born when I was 34. The Mirena Coil has worked wonders for me but I'm so scared that now my fertility is shutting down, it's going to do something frightening to me.
For whoever has gotten this far, thank you for reading. I just don't want to have to worry about this anymore. I just want to mentally be able to function without this hanging over me all of the time.
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