Everything is hanging by a thread.
Posted , 4 users are following.
I've been trying so hard, nothing works so I just block it all out with cocaine and alcohol. My thoughts of suicide are so appealing at the moment. I have started seeing things, hearing things, my dreams are like real life. I go to work and I can't focus or even find the energy to do anything. I'm scared of who and what I have become. I can't see any light. Tried so many different pills, spent enough time in hospital, had the counselling. Even been clean from the drugs. Nothing stops it. Really tired of this....
4 likes, 7 replies
Emis_Moderator danny04141
Posted
Hi danny04141,
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologise for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
If you are based outside of the UK.
The Samaritans is a UK based charity, but they also have suggestions for how you can access help in other countries.
Please have a look at this page https://www.befrienders.org/directory
danny04141 Emis_Moderator
Posted
Thanks for your email, I feel so selfish and have so much going on in my head. I'm right on the edge right now and I don't know if I will male it. All that i can think about is stopping the pain. I feel so lonely, I 've been drinking and sniffing all night to try and block everything out, feel like I'm wasting everybody's time. My friend is dying of cancer and I don't even have the strength to see her. I'm a f*****g waste... No good for anything. Think I'm gonna go now...... Got so much love for so many people but who wants it? Sending love to the world x
laura08496 danny04141
Posted
Danny, you are not a waste. in fact you are a sweet person for even wanting to send your love to the world while you are not feeling well. i know how difficult it is to be around people who are close to dying, i'm sure your friend can see how you are suffering too. please try not to be so hard on yourself. sending my love back to you, laura
hikiaru danny04141
Posted
Oh, danny... Been feeling pretty bad myself and suicidal so I decided to check other people´s posts if I could maybe help someone somehow...Reading your post I really felt like I don´t know what to say..Because really, how do you give hope when you yourself don`t have any at the moment... All I can say is, and I am aware that maybe it won't help much, and thats okay, I hope it maybe helps just a little bit so you can get to the next thing....really...You´re not wasting peoples time and certainly not wasting my time. What are people for if not there to support and help? I really do think this...no matter what the Society may be or feel like. Having ones friend die is a huge thing to have happen to one..I really feel for you… You sound like a nice human, it would be a pity to have one less of you, truly. And even if you didn´t sound nice, you still were born and are worthy. I am sure there are people out there who would want your love, danny, I really hope you can see through this pain and suffering that you are experiencing and find a way to share this love with the people who need it. : )
markwright danny04141
Posted
Dear Danny! First of all, I want to say that you are not alone because if you are alone if now body is with you why we are commenting on your thread? Means here lot of person with you that's by they are listening to your problems also try to give the solution to you.
First of all, you should remove all the negative thoughts from your mind because of it's not your cup of tea. You are so smart people you can do anything in your life, you just need some motivation that's it.You can watch any motivational videos on youtube.If you feel tired like you don't want to work right now or your body is not helping you do anything you can take some leave to enjoy some trip. I suggest you need to do some trip to enjoy yourself. Also, watch motivational videos.
You can share you all problem with me so that I can help you out from this problems.
danny04141 markwright
Posted
Hi marwright, thank you for your kind words, I will definitely look at your YouTube's and take it from there. Just a few nice words helps and lightens the load... ?
Will let you know when I have viewed your videos.
All the best, Danny
danny04141
Posted