could really do with some help please
i have been off methadone and heroin since March 2016 I haven’t been near anyone or anything to do with it.
its not easy but I’m clean now and very proud of it.
However I have a partner of 18 months! He knows about my past.
I said that I couldn’t be around any class As. And I wouldn’t want to be with somone that is. I was with my husband 16 years and got out of it he stayed on the drugs.
I found out about 4months ago that the Man Iam with has been doing cocaine. I went crazy explained my feeling about it.
I explained I hated anything to do with it. He said he would
i have done loads of drugs over the years the very thought of an upper gives me a rush. Mad I know. It does
So we talked he said it wasn’t a problem to him, he wouldn’t do it again.
Now I’m not stupid I went there last night and I saw an old fiver rolled up, so I licked it and it was defo coke.
I don’t want to be with anyone on drugs as I’ve said it’s a personal choice but now 4 months from the original conversation he’s still doing it.
its with a friend it’s been going on ages and he thought that I didn’t know!
i feel that he doesn’t want to stop. When I asked him about this today h put his fingers in his ears like a child.
IVe left his now after me gobbling off I was so upset to think he we do it again.
Also how stupid do I feel? Really really stupid!!
weve not been-getting on well at all even without this!!
so ive walked away my hearts broken..... again
this man knew from the start I was completely honest about my situation.
Does Anyone hi any advice please!!!
I thought he was on my side, we had no secrets that was all lies aswell
Also there’s been other times he’s done it ive known and not said anything hoping im wrong.........Stupid me
also I’m with the local mental health team he knows this and all the thoughts I’ve been having.