Existential anxiety
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Hello to all,
I have posted a few times here for my anxiety and my depression. A brief backstory. I was diagnosed with Gad last summer after some panick attacks. I was prescribed medication but never took it and for a few months I was doing great. After some stressful situation the anxiety came back. I didn't do much about it until it started to turn into depression. I started medication this time and I can say it is helping. I don't feel myself yet but I am hopeful. The disturbing thing is that I get these existential questions pop into my mind and drive me crazy. I constantly think of the meaning of life. I think about my future and Everytime i think what's the point you are going to die anyway. I wasn't thinking like that. Ever. I am scared of getting older and I am only 24. I am scared of wether I want family or not in the future. This is so frustrating. I try to keep busy and not to think so much but it bothers me. Yesterday a friend told me her brother committed suicide and I was so shocked that I couldn't sleep all night. Since yesterday I am thinking again about death all the time. I don't have any intention of harming myself and that's why it is so scary. Thank you in advance for your support and time.
Joann
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Donna23316 joann15038
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Hi Joanne, it's nice to message you again. So you are questioning the meaning of life. We all do it. There's nothing wrong with that. So, you are feeling philosophical and pensive, there is nothing wrong with that either. Don't put too much emphasis on what you are thinking. When you have thoughts about death, for example, let the thought, come into your mind and let them pass. Don't fight them or recoil from them, as they can become stronger and even intrusive. Joann, just remind yourself of the truth. Which is you are going through a tough time and are not quite feeling 100% yet! You have thoughts about whether or not you want a family etc. You don't need to decide that right now. There are no rules. What will be, will be. You sound not dissimilar to myself. I also have Gad. I over - analyse everything, honestly! I drive myself mad at times. I enjoy looking around churchyards and reading the headstones. Sometimes I find really old ones who died at the turn of the century. It's a morbid curiosity of mine. I find it interesting. It's not a habit or anything. Does that make me strange or weird? "The answer is that it's a matter of opinion. So WHAT,?" Its no big deal. There, my secret is out, lol. No seriously, stop worrying about your thoughts. Keep me posted sweetheart. Don't worry things will improve. Donna xxx
Donna23316 joann15038
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joann15038 Donna23316
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Hello Donna,
Thank you again for your reply! You make me feel less alone. I try so much to let them be in my mind but these thoughts terrify me so much it's so frustrating! How do you cope with all of this? Are better now?
Joann
Donna23316 joann15038
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Hey Joann, you are not alone. I bet alot more people suffer this but may find it hard to seek help. Maybe, out of fear of being judged. Although I also contradict that somewhat, as more people are speaking out hence removing the stigma and raising awareness that mental illness does exist. If someone had a broken leg you can't say "get up and walk your he ok". They wouldn't be able to. Just as you can't! to someone who is anxious "pull yourself together. If we could, we would! Some days are better than others for me to be honest. I talk to someone close and say I feel really jittery and anxious but it will pass. That's the important bit to say and think to yourself, even if you don't believe it. Joann, when you get these thoughts and mentally you are carried away with them. Bring you self back to telling yourself "OK I'm thinking this and I'm thinking that but it just my GAD. It will pass. Don't let the thoughts scare you. Don't add fear to fear xx x always here for you sweetheart, Donna xxx.
joann15038 Donna23316
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Hello again Donna,
Thank you again for all these useful tips on managing my thoughts. I have been doing some research and have come across with quarter life crisis. I think that my anxiety has made this crisis worse. My life is pretty good. I am from Greece so here people struggle a lot economically. I have my job pay my rent and have an amazing boyfriend and furbaby. But for the past two months I can't seam to enjoy all of these things.
I guess we all have our bad days. I admire your strength and positivity even when struggling. I hope you have a nice and calm day!!
Joann
Donna23316 joann15038
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You too have a nice day, Joann. If you continue feeling bad then please see the doctor. It all boils down to mind over matter. Whenever you get intrusive thoughts, don't run from them, think it, and let it go. Don't analyse the content. Remind yourself of the truth. It's just the disorder causing you to have strange thoughts it's all about mind over matter. And it's not always easy, and I have bad days where I honestly don't feel strong. But do you know what, I just accept it. I accept I'm having a particularly day and it's OK to feel like that. Message soon, Donna xxx