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hi guys , im pouria , im a suffering from anxitey (dr says) ,
1 month ago , i've been in a car with 3 of my highschool friends , and by the way im 24.. they had some pot and i smoked 1/4 of it for the first time in my life , my heart started pumping really fast and i freaked out (before this i had chest pain background and a little bit of heart problems but nothing serious) , then there was a feeling in the left side of my brain, nothing painfull but weird, suddenly i couldnt control my body anymore, i started to panic and i lost my control and my left side of body was moving for itself in odd postions and i was like an idiot , i had the delusion that losing control is going to be permanent and i am going to be like this forever... you can not imagine how much i was scared and i paniced.. my friends took my to a hospital and near the door i fell to the ground and like convulsion and compeletly lost control and i taught im going to die from something like an stroke,and i was telling my friend my last words , he freaked out and he was telling me that im going to be ok , it was like movies ..then employees came and they took me to the hospital and used tranquilliser on me and then i was unconscious , didnt know what is going on around me and didnt know how much time is passing. but i remember the extreme feeling of fear
my parrents came , and they took me home. i knew something bad is going to happen to me...
i came home and slept , next day i woke up i was shaking and was scared very much. but i was okey in that day, i cryed alot i was so scared.
next day i woke up and something really bad happend to me, i had a numbness in left side of my brain and my left leg too, i had some heart problems too . i freaked out i taught im going to die, i didnt do anything about it but the next day i went to a doctor and i didnt say anythings about the pot , he said im having Anxiety and gave me some pills for heart and some vitamins like B-100 and folic acid and meloxicam and pranol.. this is what happened to me after first time trying weed...sad
i cant belive this is happening to me.
i always had anxiety in my life , right now its been a month and im suffering from things below:
1.A decresed amount of feeling , like numbness all over my body , its been 4 days now.
2.Strange feelings in head like numbness and tinglings and today i feel some heatings in my scalp too.
3.I 24/7 feel very tired and having trouble sleeping , i always wake up too early in the morning from the pain and i cannot sleep again but i really wish to sleep and i cant.
4.I surely have anxiety and fear of dying but im trying to manage that.
5.A little bit unbalance when im walking.
6.Feeling bad in my neck and back
i can say my main problem is what i feel in my head and the Pressure on me.
First i taught im having an stroke , but now i think i have MS,
im thinking about suicide , and i think its the only thing that makes the pain go away, i cant take this torture anymore...im thinking about making plans with my friends and have some fun , make some good memories, and then kill myself with Drugs and plastic bag when it gets worsen..
do you think im dying too? please help me
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