Extremely depressed, don't know what to do anymore.
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It started about two months ago, on September 29th.
"I had I bad episode of a panic attack. I ate a little more then I usually do, and I had a very bad feeling in my chest and my heart was racing so we went to the emergency room. They tested my blood, did chest x-rays, and I had an ekg done.
Then it happend again, and I went straight back to the ER. I was then transported to Riley's Children Hospital. ( A very great place, lots of high tech stuff and what-not. ) I had an echocardiogram done at Rileys, an ekg, multiple blood tests, and everything came back fine. Including the visits from the ER, everything was fine also.
I then went to the ER three more times, each time they did the same tests and my heart was very good and healthy. I still feel like my heart can stop though, and I get scared ever night. I even had to sleep with my parents one night. After the episode is over I usually break down and cry until I can't cry anymore. I am seeing a psychologist on monday, thankfully, and I hope he can help me also.
My main point is that I am afraid there is actually something wrong with my heart, and I am afraid of sudden death. Just recently I went to an urgent care center and had a cat scan where they injected some kind of dye in me to see if there were any blood clots or risk of a blood clot. I can't deal with this anymore and I often think about suicide when I break down. I am so afraid of sudden death and I always think the doctors missed something in all of the tests.
( I am a 14 year old male by the way. ) "
This is a post i made awhile ago for those of you who are not informed of my situation. It has been a couple weeks since this discussion and things have gotten worse. A lot worse. I started seeing a physcologist, and it is helping. I am also getting put on medicine for my anxiety and panic. I have drove my parents nearly insane, and I keep on thinking that my heart is going to stop. Everytime I lay down in my bed, thoughts go through my head saying " You are going to die, RIGHT now. " and I believe it every time. It is killing me, my parents, and my family. I have been thinking about suicide for a couple days now, and I don't know what to do anymore. I think my Anxiety is bringing on a lot of depression also. The monitor results came in, a whole 30 days filled with information. I pressed the button every time I felt weird or irregular. There is no possible way they could of missed something. They said that my heart is fine and there is no more cardiology needed, but I can't get myself to believe this. I am afraid to tell my psychologist and my parents. I don't know what to do now. Help?
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First I would like to say I'm so sorry you are going through this, you are way too young to be experiencing stuff like this, it's not fair. Reading what you said it looks like you are suffering from anxiety. Look at it realistically, if you were suffering some heart problems something would have been found now, and you probably wouldn't have this panic that come along with your symptoms. I started with panic/anxiety when I was 17 (I'm 40 now) and I was really confused and scared, the doctor didn't really take me seriously because of my age and I spent an entire year thinking I was either dying or going mental.
I want to tell you that it WILL get better, the medication should help you. Are you on anti depressants? If you are these can take a while to kick in so do bear with them, they can also make your symptoms worse to start with. It's completely normal do feel depressed by all of this, who wouldn't? Alot of people on this forum will totally sympathise with what you are going through, it's very frightening even for an adult. For 6 months earlier this year I felt exactly like you did, like something was really wrong with me and I clung to my husband like death.
I don't know if they're putting you on anxiety meds to calm you down but you probably need more long term help like anti deppresants by the sounds of it. But please most of all know that what you are feeling is really common and it can be solved, don't do anything silly like harm yourself. Anytime you feel like that talk to someone, your parents, a friend or ever someone on here. I tell my kids all the time there is no problem that can't be solved and I'm a big believer in that.
Big hugs Brandon xxx
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Anxiety is dreadful to Cope with ( I know myself ) . Please do not evergive up, the others are right, and also a good form of support, if you did have any problems the tests would have certainly picked them up by now.. I am sure that nobody would be angry if you still had concerns, but remember that every single doctor and specialist want to and havedone their very best for you....it really will get better young man every
Day is another day closer to enjoying and living your life...
I wish you so much luck and happiness xx Deirdre
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To remember that every Doctor and every Specialist ( of any
Type ) has to adhere to very, very strictly and also take an oath
To in every way HAVE A DUTY OF CARE for you.. every single
Doctor you see really wants to do their VERY best to help you
And they take that very seriously...
Please try everyday just to trust a little in their care for you....
As I am sure you also know...
YOUR PARENTS Would certainly make certain that they do their VERY, VERY best for you.... I wish you all the luck and happiness
In the world young man.. have faith in your family... very best
Sincere regards to you...DEE Deirdre...x
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