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It started about two months ago, on September 29th.
"I had I bad episode of a panic attack. I ate a little more then I usually do, and I had a very bad feeling in my chest and my heart was racing so we went to the emergency room. They tested my blood, did chest x-rays, and I had an ekg done.
Then it happend again, and I went straight back to the ER. I was then transported to Riley's Children Hospital. ( A very great place, lots of high tech stuff and what-not. ) I had an echocardiogram done at Rileys, an ekg, multiple blood tests, and everything came back fine. Including the visits from the ER, everything was fine also.
I then went to the ER three more times, each time they did the same tests and my heart was very good and healthy. I still feel like my heart can stop though, and I get scared ever night. I even had to sleep with my parents one night. After the episode is over I usually break down and cry until I can't cry anymore. I am seeing a psychologist on monday, thankfully, and I hope he can help me also.
My main point is that I am afraid there is actually something wrong with my heart, and I am afraid of sudden death. Just recently I went to an urgent care center and had a cat scan where they injected some kind of dye in me to see if there were any blood clots or risk of a blood clot. I can't deal with this anymore and I often think about suicide when I break down. I am so afraid of sudden death and I always think the doctors missed something in all of the tests.
( I am a 14 year old male by the way. ) "
This is a post i made awhile ago for those of you who are not informed of my situation. It has been a couple weeks since this discussion and things have gotten worse. A lot worse. I started seeing a physcologist, and it is helping. I am also getting put on medicine for my anxiety and panic. I have drove my parents nearly insane, and I keep on thinking that my heart is going to stop. Everytime I lay down in my bed, thoughts go through my head saying " You are going to die, RIGHT now. " and I believe it every time. It is killing me, my parents, and my family. I have been thinking about suicide for a couple days now, and I don't know what to do anymore. I think my Anxiety is bringing on a lot of depression also. The monitor results came in, a whole 30 days filled with information. I pressed the button every time I felt weird or irregular. There is no possible way they could of missed something. They said that my heart is fine and there is no more cardiology needed, but I can't get myself to believe this. I am afraid to tell my psychologist and my parents. I don't know what to do now. Help?
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