Falling out of love because of depression or depressed because I'm falling out of love?

Hi Megan, I suffer with severe anxiety and depression and have recently felt this too. I've been with my boyfriend a year, and I love him to bits, he's the most amazing person I've ever met and supports/cares for me every day. But saying this, about a week ago I had similar feelings to yours, I woke up and I don't know if it's because we had a bit of a disagreement the night before, but I was really questioning my feelings for him and felt for a few hours like I didn't love him. It was so weird because I knew deep down that I really did love him, but it was like my mind was trying to tell me I didn't. Once I saw him that night the thoughts did go away, but he even said he felt like I was being 'off' with him. The next day I was back to normal and knew that I did love him, and even started looking for a house together, so I do think it was perhaps my depression that somehow managed to make me feel like that. So I completely get what you feel like and it's an awful feeling because I felt so guilty! Hope this makes you feel a bit better x

It does help that someone has had a similar problem. I actually had a break down today and almost broke up with him because that's what the thoughts were telling me to do. I called him and he came home from work to comfort me. I know it's the damn medicine making things worse before they make things better so I'm trying not to do anything rash like break up with him until I'm feeling more normal and level headed. It just all sucks so bad.

I'm sorry to hear that megan, I hope your heads feeling a little clearer today

I personally wouldn't break up with him because that might make you feel a lot worse, have you told him that this is how you're feeling? I know it's a really hard thing to tell someone but if you get him to understand it might make it a bit easier on you. I still get those thoughts every now and again but I know never to act on them, and they always pass. I really hope your head feels a little clearer soon, but just know you're not the only one and do not feel guilty x

I'm still having some of the thoughts. I'm trying to hold onto him as much as I can because I have talked to him about it and he is being super supportive but part of me also just wants to be alone right now. I kind of want to go stay at my dad's for a little while but I know I need my fiancé' push to do things. I'm going on missing my second day of work and he hasn't been pushing me to go because he knows that I just started the medicine but I'm pretty sure next week he will. Which I do need to carry on as normally as possible until the medicine works but I'm just having such a hard time.

Hi Megan we talked before.You probably would be better to take at least 4 weeks off work as you will not be feeling too good until the side effects settle down.You maybe should stay with your dad to prevent you doing something you will regret.

How do I do that when I only have one week of vacation? And if I'm not getting paid, how do I get my insurance?

Sorry not from your country.Have no idea what way your system works .