Fast, screaming thoughts and slow outter world

When i was younger, this happened extremely often, maybe once or twice every two weeks or so. As I get older, thankfully I haven't experienced episodes this bad in a while. I've always been curious on what this was or if anyone else has experienced this. So here is what would happen-

Sometimes this would occur after very stressful situations or sometimes just seemingly out of no where. All of the sudden my inner Dialoge would become EXTREMELY fast, EXTREMELY loud, and my thoughts would overlap each other. Like so fast I couldn’t hear what I was thinking- even if it was normal speed I wouldn’t have been able to keep up. And on top of that, there was another layer of inner dialogue that was most prominent because it was also extremely loud -like screaming in my own brain drowning out everything else type of loud- it was slowed down unlike the other thoughts that were dialed to 11. Typically that slow loud voice that I called my dominant voice would just be me thinking “this is scary” “Why are my thoughts so loud” “what is going on?” “Why is this happening again” etc. And then, on the outside, my actual hearing would be almost completely dysfunctional. Along with my sense of time, speed, colors, smell, and taste. Every outter sense was totally dulled. The outside world looked like someone put it in slow motion. And I mean that quite literally. When you go on YouTube and hit 0.25x speed or whatever, that is EXACTLY what I was seeing in real life. I had no sense of how much time would pass because of it. Colors dulled out to almost total black and white. I couldn’t speak. And I just kind of existed in that state until it passed. It even occurred in my nightmares, I would have dreams where my brain had those same episodes and the dreams themselves would take on the extremely fast and loud nature.

I still don’t know what it was. I figured disassociation- but i do that rather a lot and it is nothing like what I use to experience. I haven’t had one of these episodes in a few years thankfully- they are becoming far and few between. Still, would be interesting to see if anyone else has this happen to them??

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