Fear of being poisoned/drugged/ allergic to food?
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Hello, I'm back... I'll take you guys back a bit, last year, I was fine... Until one day I took a pill that my doctor gave me called "adipex" to lose weight. After taking only one pill my whole world changed.. I developed agoraphobia, panic disorder, and some say I have PTSD, anyway.. so I was homeless and got into a transitional housing where someone put bleach in my water, and since then I wouldn't leave anything out..Then I had a friend (extremely close friend) in that house that slept in the room next to mine... We bonded a lot for the next 8 months, but then I found her dead from a pill overdose. I got strength and left that house, leaving some of my agoraphobia behind... Because now it's not as bad.. I can drive just not too far away. But I can go around the city alone and to work and whatnot. All of a sudden my son had a mild allergic reaction to something and so now I think I'm allergic to everything... Fish, shellfish, all vegetables except lettuce and potatoes, all fruits, it's ridiculous... So now I don't eat any of those things. I won't eat from restaurants such as subway that have over the counter food because I always think.. "what if someone reached over and poisoned or three some powdered/liquid drug over the counter? And buffets? Out of the question.. also if I order something I have to see that person making my food at all times... If someone walks in front of them that's it, I won't eat it. If I lose my train of thought.. I don't eat it. It's extremely hard to live like this. I know people aren't actively trying to poison me.. I know that's not their intention to kill me.. so why do I think like this??? Why am I so scared to die??? I've lost 30 pounds in the last two months because I don't eat, I literally starving myself until I get out of work.. did I mention I work at a subway restaurant? But not even in my job I'll eat even tho I'm there alone 95% of the time. But I think.. what if my coworker poisoned the chips.or .It the meats, it's crazy..Also if I buy something, I take it to my car lock the doors close all windows and have to have my good in my lap on my way to wherever I have to go. When I have food I don't want any interruption, I don't want to talk.. I don't want to look away. I just want my food. It's overwhelming and I hate myself for being this way.. I loved food, so why can't I have what I love without having to worry if I'm gonna die afterwards. Due to my panic attacks I cut off what I loved the most. Chocolate and caffeine including sodas. I stopped smoking a year ago... And I also won't take any and I mean ANY medicine for fear of dying. has anyone gone through this.. if so please let me know how you managed to get better.
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chrisk89 Lonelygirl28
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Hi Lonelygirl,
?While your symptoms do sounds like that of PTSD, lets take it back to what first triggered it all, the Adipex. This is the root cause of your paranoia and panic disorder. I would discuss this with a GP and push for referral to a psychiatrist. I'm not a medicinal practitioner so it's hard to say what could be done here to remove these thoughts. Perhaps the right medicine and therapy such as CBT/EFT to re-program your thought process. In the meantime, do not fight your thoughts as this will only reinforce them. Remind yourself that they are only negative thoughts, combat them with positive ones/reaffirmations.
Guest Lonelygirl28
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I know exactly what you're going through, 2 years ago I used to be extremely afraid of dying. I couldn't stand being alone in case anything happened and I was so convinced I could be allergic to anything so I hardly ate, or slept for that matter. Sometimes I'd also worry that someone poisoned my food. Even though I know It's irrational It's difficult to push those worries away. They're a slippery slope, you start questioning the safety of one food, and then you think "if this is poisoned, couldn't anything else also be?". It's like living in a nightmare, in fact idk if I'd call it living at all. I still occasionally have those kind of thoughts but im a lot better after seeing a therapist, and gradually pushing myself to face my fears, like taking small bites of food you're scared of while in a safe environment. Idk if your situation allows you to really take the time to learn how to deal with ypur fears but i hope you get better x
thomas61076 Lonelygirl28
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I have just started panick attacks and now I'm worrying that people have drugged my food. I can't eat takeaways, or things like chocolate incase someone done something to the food in the factory before it's sent to shops. That goes with any good. I won't take medication for it incase I panick on the medication
kristen60492 thomas61076
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I'm going through a similar thing. I always think my food or drink is drugged. it's tiring, I hear you. I inspect all my food/wrappers, etc. sometimes spit out my food. I hope you get some relief soon. I just realized you posted this 3 years ago. I hope you're well.
cory35255 Lonelygirl28
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Hey ive been going through the exact same thing. ive lost weight, even after i do eat ill think skmething is wrong with my food. i have severe anxiety and ptsd. has this gotten better for you? if so how did you deal with it? hope youre doing better. thank you!
bea0826 cory35255
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maybe you could try to relax you by watching possitifs videos in youtube, for exemple videos about human love, or about the wonderfull things of the life,; or about the faith of God, I mean things about the peace of mind and peace of hart, The real peace, By watching those videos in youtube about optimisme of the life and love, "your mind and your heart will be filled with positive thoughts and feelings in such a way that negative thoughts and feelings will come out of you." I reccommend you also to read books like Bible. In my case, I like to read the Bible, specially about love of God, Also, the byographies about saints like Saint Augustine of Hippo. He wrote a very famous book named "Confessions". Here, he explained how he was a man with a very stressfull life and then, he changed his life because of truth Love. This is the way that I could calm my anxiety this year.
bea0826 Lonelygirl28
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Hi Lonelygirl28, spending a lot of time alone is bad for the mind and heart. It is the cause of psychological problems for exemple bad thoughts and bad feelings; panic and anxiety. People are social beings. We should socialize even if we don't like people. Being alone that could be good and important but socializing is a greater need.
jessie1992 Lonelygirl28
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This made me want to cry because this is me. So I’ll tell you I’m sorry. Because this is the worst thing to go through. I have a unnecessary fear that I will be drugged, that I will have an allergic reaction from foods that are not even known for allergic reactions. My boyfriend tries to make me try new things, I cannot. I have a consuming fear of dying and it’s ruining my life. Other than me being worried about things like allergic reactions, eating others foods unless I was there to watch them prepare it (even then I’m not comfortable because I don’t know if they could put anything else in there), I thought that I had a handle on things. I don’t. Because this isn’t a normal way to live and it’s very depressing. It’s incredible (yet awful!) to see others with the same fears. So far, I have found nothing to help me. Im a mess. It really is ironic to be so scared of dying that you can’t even live properly. I am scared of everything.