Fear of sudden death and not being diagnosed

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Hello everyone, I joined to this site because basically my husband, family and friends are sick of my constant fear when I tell them something is wrong with me. 

2 weeks ago I had shooting left leg pain and small perfect circle bruises, I was sure I had a blood clot but today I had an echo for my leg and it was clean, yet I have another bruise now so they want me to do blood tests. Of course google is not helping by showing me leukemia possibilities and now I’m having throbbing sharp pain in my head with face numbness. Which I’m convinced now I have a brain tumor (been having headaches and migraine for years).

Fear of dying is ruining my life so much, I’m having anxiety attack every night in bed with the fear I won’t wake up in the morning. Can anyone suggest ANYTHING?

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    Halo

    Have you hit yourself or knocked your leg somewhere. The bruises from Leukemia are generally not the same colour, they are painful to touch.

    The first thing I would suggest is get someone who loves you to block Google Health and when you try to enter again they should tap your fingers with a school rule. Stop using GOOGLE it will make you and everyone who knows you very unhappy. My first suggestion

    With your leg bruises, I used to get them many years ago by sitting cramped up in the car. I also get bruises from NSID medications,also some pain medications, also  can cause bruising if you take them regular. 

    I get bruising caused by medication, are you taking any medications at this time ?

    If you are suffering Migrain ask your GP for medications and get it sorted. You could also go and get your eyes checked, they should be checked every two years in the UK. Just a suggestion

    Do you have any idea what has caused your fears, Health Anxiety ??

    BOB

    • Posted

      Hi borderriever!

      Unfortunately I didn’t hit my leg. It literally appeared while I was sitting on the couch starting with a tiny purple dot, turning into a purple circle, then turning into pink and disappearing. Looks like a cigarette burn shape. It stays on my body for 3-4 days with little pain. My husband keeps rolling his eyes whenever I’m on google, even in the middle of the movie if I feel an unusual pain I stop watching and start googling symptoms. I’m sure he will be happy to block google smile I take paracetemol often. Mostly because I got addicted to it. I think my health anxiety has to do a lot of me gaining weight and moving to another country. Of course there is a bit of trauma from my dad who used to scare me by telling how I would die from stroke or heart attack if I kept gaining weight. I have a very healthy life style now but I don’t know. I went for migraine check up and though I insisted they rejected my request for a scan and gave me migraine pills instead. I really hope everyhing is in my head and I can actually live life.

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    hey halo86

    i feel exactly like you, my first post was i keep thinking that i am gonna have a sudden cardiac arrest, and google made me worse, so i made a deal with myself to not search up any symptoms anymore and lets see how that goes, i literally feel the same as you, i have chest pain or my thigh or arm hurts and i go "oh no, im having a heart attack or sudden cardiac arrest", or i had a mole in my nail and i thought it was melanoma, or i have head pain and i think its a stroke or cancer, or my stomach hurts and i think its appendicitis or cancer in my stomach, its all the mind that plays tricks, and thats what i learnt, hope you feel better!

    • Posted

      It’s so nice to know that I’m not alone. It is driving me crazy to keep diagnosing myself through google and then having clean test results and assuming doctors missed something every single time. I think I will feel better if my next blood test results come out okay too. 

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