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Hi guys, firstly I'm 23. And I am terrified.
4 months ago started having stabbing pains in my upper abdomen- sightly to the right. Since about 2 months ago everything has gone out of kilter. I have nausea 24/7; severe right side pain; loss of appetite; feeling full quickly; am absolutely exhausted, needing a lot more sleep than usual; some of my stools look yellow/lighter; & I have horrendous acid reflux. I'm belching all the time, and thus tasting acid in my throat- often I have a lump there. On top of that, my periods have gone awl & I've having severe pelvic pain.
I've had blood tests, & an ultrasound on pelvis and upper abdomen - all normal. I've been so persistent with doctors, going weekly and sometimes to out of hours services. I'm on a waiting list for gastro and gynea consultations. This has taken me months to even get those, but yet still more waiting. I'm absolutely terrified that I may have some sort of cancer, stomach or pancreatic. Doctors doubt it will be serious, and I'm not a priority so must wait for referrals.
In the meantime, my life feels over. I'm having suicidal thoughts- but not in the traditional sense. I'm desperate to be alive, and feel normal. I'm so scared it will be taken from me, and that I will decline. Anti-depressants might not be a good choice as they can increase acid in the stomach. My whole life is on hold, I never finished writing my dissertation. I'm just waiting in misery to find out what's wrong with me. I wasn't depressed before, but it has crept in. I just want my life back, and I'm finding it hard to imagine its something other than a serious illness. I can't cope
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