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Ok, so just a bit of background on myself, I'm an 27 year old male, from since I was about 13 I've always worried that something is seriously wrong with me whenever I get like a bad headache and stuff.
It's got progressively worse over the last 4/5 years, the first main thing was 4 years ago I was told I had to go to the eye hospital after a routine check-up to check for glaucoma, whilst waiting for my appointment, I started to develop severe headaches, and I'd convinced myself I had a brain tumor, everything turned out ok in the end and nothing was wrong with my eyes, but those few months leading up to the appointment was tortue.
Every now and again since then, I get a headache and think the same thing, but more recently I started to get lower back ache towards the end of last year (October), it was off and on, but didn't think anything of it, come January this year and I was still experiecing it every now and again, and I started to convince myself that I had some form of Cancer or something (I don't think Google helps with this fears sometimes), anyway I also get scared of seeing the doctor as I'm scared of what he's going to say, the ache mostly went away, but recently came back again, sometimes I actually think its my chair at work (work in an office and sit for like 8 hours a day), as when I'm active it actually feels better.
The ache comes for like a day or two (not the whole day just a few hours here and there, depending how I am sitting) and then goes for like a week, one minute I convince myself I'm ok, next minute I think Ive got something really bad, now the ache has left my back and my right leg has started to ache, and I here we go again I'm convinced I have some sort of Cancer, and it scares the hell out of me.
But not only do I have a fear of seeing the doctor, I fear that the first little back ache I had in October last year may have been early signs or something, and now I have left it for 5/6 months, it could be even worse.
I hate constantly feeling like this, when I don't think about it the aches sometimes go, same for when I had my headaches, but then something happens to make me think about it again and it immediately returns.
I just want to live a normal, happy life, I have a kid on the way in June and I don't want to feel this way anymore, constantly worrying that something is wrong with me.
Sorry for the long post, but just feel so alone about this, whenever I speak to my wife about it she just thinks I'm being silly and tells me to stop thinking this way, but I can't help it :-(
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