Fed up with people attitude towards me

people dont unerstand our illness.some people dont and have never exprience depression.my husband is one who does not understand either.he has never took a antidepressant in his life.its a hard battle sometimes from day to day.people need to walk a mile in our shoes.we are not lazy the illness just zaps our energy.plus you got a double whamy trying to come off the pills.thats when every little thing gets in the way.it was the same with me.i had to go through two deaths last month.i have a child that looks up to me.he dont understand.i have you all and maybe 2 close friends i can talk to.dont worry about people that are uneducated about this disease.one day it just might hit them.i dont wish it on know one though,just saying.you find out who your friends are when we are down......i know how sick you must feel.i am there to.

its a long hard battle and know one understands unless they been there.i wouldnt wish this on know body its really serious stuff

your such a postive person.i always enjoy what you share.i know its hard for now.like you said every day i hope is a change.take it one day at a time and we will get there.

The positive thing here is you have realised you need help and are reaching out.  Unless people have actually been through what you are going through and how bad it is they really have no idea.  I had to reach a point to, it was either exist or live life and like you found trying to work very difficult you will get through this.  If people don't understand surround yourself with people who do understand, are postive and can keep you motivated.

Hi Michael,

Anxiety and depression effect people in many different ways, the trouble is you need to get your feelings across which is your current hurdle. You stated you are waiting for your benefits to be sorted out. May I ask, which ones you are referring to? Do you have a Consultant as well as a GP?

Depending on which benefits you are on about, could get you out of your current situation. The problems these days is people do not know what they are entitled to, and can be missing out on numerous benefits, or they do not realize that claims can be done very quickly, under certain circumstances. There are holes in the system at the moment, but unless you know someone that can get you through to the right person, you can miss out on many. I know from my own personal experience with the DWP, which in the end the person I dealt with asked me "Why have you left it all these years to just put a claim in? - The problem was I never knew I was entitled to certain benefits, and if you get one it can affect many others in positive and negaftive ways. In my case it affected me by losing £3.00 roughly a week, but my weekly money increased by over £35 a week. So, what people say is true you can get more money but then lose more from another.

Other benefits are strange when looked at from a logical point of view. I'm on benefits, but not all my life - I used to work, and I mean work 16 hours a day 7 days a week, back then it was okay by law to work 16 hour shifts, as long as I had an 8 hour break! I know you are probably thinking I was mad, but for me I enjoyed it, I would see people at work 16hrs a day - but had no social life, I didn't drink, but smoked heavily which my downfall @ around 40 a day!! I did not want for anything, because not being at home for very long. Never drove a car, I cycled to work evedryday in all winds and weathers. On the odd occasion I would take one of the girls out to the pub, never really was never in to permanent relationships. I literally had thousands in the bank because I hardly spent money, apart for housekeeping for my parents. For over 3 years I was like that then I had an accident at the young age of 22, that was a point in my life that changed everything. The company I was working for was based in Germany but had factories worldwide, and I was on the next transfer list to New York from the UK. Well, sadly that never come to be... The accident I had basically turned my life upside down, after 6 months the company put me off because of insurance issues and the condition I was in. I became very depressed, mobility started to become worse, and me well I was undiagnosed, suffering from seizures, the condition became worse as the years passed by, then just over 2 years later I was diagnosed with Focal Segmental Dystonia, Functional Episodes and Epilepsy. There was no cure, only one but the success rate was only 5% - which to me was a no go. Then the medication started, low at first then that changed over the years to over 40+ a day!! This included antidepressants, one of which had lethal effects if taken in a high dosage, don't get me wrong my life was really bad and I often thought of taking those as a wayout, I read up on them and seen they totally damage ones stomach in large doses. This played on my mind for months, not just because what I was suffering from, but also the negativity in and around me. I lost my parents within 4 years of one another, i did get married at one point, but my nephew died at 14 months in under 6 hours, my wife had a miscarriage, my father-in-law died, I was diagnosed with cancer but beat it, then I was rushed twice into hospital dying from the inside out. My wife and I had own children which did make my life a little better - but my condition became worse, I lost full mobility and needed care 24/7 - my wife caught me trying to overdose on a days worth of tablets, even now she does not trust me - I can't say I blame her.

I know what you mean by living in poverty, and the gov't made it impossible for us to even get any loans or a grants just before xmas for a new cooker. The excuse was ridiclous, because I worked in the past I was unable to even apply. So, basically if I never worked in my life, I could get a loan or grant these days - that to me is just like saying to people don't work we'll give you loans and grants!  This country is so ridiculous, regardless whom runs the county as PM - Cameron, well everyone knows hes been the worse one in political history!

How people live on benefits and go on holidays every year is beyond me! Last time we managed to get money to go holiday was 11 years ago, in North Wales at the end of season - cheapest time. And that was with the help of a charity! Let me know about the questions I asked at the start of this post, and I maybe able to point you in the right direction.

Regards,

Les.