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People really don't understand how anxiety and depression affect our lives. I have not been able to work for ages and am now living in extreme poverty and have got to the point where I have had to reach out for help. Some people don't really say much as maybe they don't want to upset me but most others say things that I find hard to deal with. I have been phoning people that I thought were my friends and just asking if I could borrow some money until my benefits are sorted out as I could take a few weeks and I have nothing to live on. Everyone is saying they can't help me at the moment because they are skint the selfs with it being just after Xmas and I totally understand that. It's just some off the remarks they come out with that upsets me. I have been accused of being lazy and should get off my arse and do some work. Do they really think I would be stuck at home doing nothing and living in poverty if I was able to just get some work and take care of myself. The problem is that people don't understand how much this illness debilitatates us do they? I tryed to explain this to a few people but they just say well ok then your depressed but you have your physical health so you can still work it not as if you have got two broken legs or something so what's the problem and someone said if you keep sitting around at home doing nothing it's no wonder your depressed. I don't choose to be ill but that's just the way it is and it don't make no difference if I'm at home doing nothing or at work I still feel like the living dead. I tryed really hard last year to work and pushed myself so hard and just ended up making myself more ill. I think that the problem is that people can't see this illness so they think it don't exist or think that we are just playing on it so as we don't have to work. I wish I could make them feel like me for a few days and see how they cope. It's so frustrating and I now even feel guilty that I'm not working and feel like I am a burden to society and the people around me. This illness is bad enough without having all this crap to deal with on top if it
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