Feel like I'll lose control

No please don't do anything to yourself. There is help. Have you told your parents about your thoughts maybe the parent you're more comfortable talking too. Tell them. I'm sure they will help you. Think about your family. Please don't ever do it. It would hurt them so much. You're their child. Depression really puts bad thoughts on our head but we should not listen to them now if you feel you might and they are causing you trouble. Like it seems it is. Get help. Your parents will be there for you. We are here too!🙏💖I understand the feeling of wanting to scream. I actually did do it when I was in my mom's vehicle. It's all the anger, frustrations,  all our troubles. You feel the need to scream and vent out. Do it👍 if it will make you feel better and you find a relieve from it. I certainly do. I scream at the top of my lungs it only happened twice and we were driving. It relieves stress. If you tell your parents they can get a therapist and if they tell them it's urgent in this case it seems. The therapist will put an appointment right away. Hope you get help. You can get better!👍💖💕💕

Sam. Please don't hurt yourself. Find someone to talk to. In my opinion this sounds like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. It is a type where instead of 'obsessing' about hygeine, for example; the obsessions are about negative thoughts, particularly the thought of yourself harming someone. My husband suffered with, + recovered from, this. It is very frightening +real. In order to prevent himself harming others (that was his obsessive fear; not actual reality) he harmed himself with many suicide attempts +self-injuries. He had CBT with a psychologist to recover. Your life is worth fighting for. You need to ask for help. Good luck!

I had a very similar experience.  I had fears of losing control and harming others or myself.  They came out of nowhere and felt very powerful and scary.  It wasn't a desire to do anything bad, I never felt the urge to do anything bad.  It was just a fear, like, "what if I lost control?".   

I came to learn that these are called "intrusive thoughts".  They are a symptom of OCD and Anxiety for some. There are many good articles and videos about this.  The first step to combating these is to understand what they are and why they are happening.  You'll find that, most importantly, the fact that you are afraid of these thoughts is actually a good thing.  People who are violently psychotic do not fear these thoughts, it is a natural state for them.  The fact that you are afraid indicates, without doubt, that you are in control and it is only just a random fear or thought.  

Do some reading and watch some videos on "intrusive thoughts".  Practicing mindfulness was probably the single best method I used to get over this.  Once you can separate your thoughts from your mind, and realize that your thoughts and fears are almost all coming from external sources (Things you read, things you see on TV, things you overhear walking down the road) you can begin to eliminate the fear behind the thoughts.

I do the same thing!!! It’s terrifying! I’m pretty sure I have pure-o. If you a Facebook you can add me. Cara Madden