Feel like I'm in a bubble ...

Hi everyone. I've been on sertraline ( lustral ) for over 3 and a half years. If I'm being really honest I've had symptoms of depression and anxiety for almost 20 years after growing up in a war zone and dysfunctional family where alcoholism was present. I always dealt with my uncomfortable feelings with drinking, relationships, sex, smoking, etc...

I stopped drinking about 5 years ago and try to make more healthy relationship choices instead of going for the first woman who shows interest in me. I've been working on myself for a good 10 years through various types of counselling , therapy and 12 step groups. It worked to an extent but nothing gave me a consistent boost/ lift like sertraline.

It has helped me a lot over the past 3 and a half years. For some reason lately I've been feeling a bit down or like I'm in a bubble. It's like I can't seem to connect with people...like there s a deep sadness inside...i turned 40 lately and am still single....i live in a house share with 3 other people and suppose I feel like my life hasn't moved on enough....maybe this feeling is a message I need to listen to but my initial reaction is...oh no the medication isn't working!!!!

I just feel so fed up with the struggle of life to be honest. I'm not even close to my family either. I live in a different country than them and have very little contact. I also don't really connect with people at work. I guess I've always felt different from others.

I just want a family...a community. I'm tired of feeling sad....of feeling lonely. I don't deserve it. I deserve much better. I'm a great guy! I just don't f*****g get it!!!!

Thanks for reading

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