Feel like Iv lost my mind, I don't know who I am anymore
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Iv never written on these blogs before but I want to find people who feel the same as me, I hope I'm not alone in this. Just over a month ago i had a serve anxiety attack. I had had them previously when I was younger but never this bad. I was on the train and had to turn back, I still remember it now, I had no idea what I was afraid of but for some reason I panicked I lost all control. Since that attack I had 5 afterwards in the space of a week. I didn't attend college or work and it was one of the worst weeks of my life. I didn't go out couldn't really drive anywhere I didn't know what was going on and I had constant intense headaches they were awful. I soon went to the doctors and got some medication but I don't take them, they proscribed me beta blockers and are meant to calm me down before an attack but I didn't like them and they didn't help I just felt abit light headed. I now have serve anxiety all day every day I'm not getting the attack I'm just feeling fear constantly I'm worried about my self and I feel like I'm losing the plot or that Iv lost it already. My thought process seems wrong and different to everyone else. I'm thinking weird, strange things and I don't want to start believing them. I'm finding it hard to relate to people and concentrate at work as a result of this I didn't go in yesterday I just panicked and thought I wouldn't be able to cope. Iv also been feeling very low and depressed. I wake up and don't want to be here I have no motivation and a huge lack of energy I can't work out how I used to be able to. I don't want to attend parties with my friends it all seems to much and to much pressure. I need to get out of this mind set but it's so difficult I try and be happy and smile when I see people but inside I feel empty and emotionless. My therapist helps but that feeling soon fades as the anxiety soon takes over again. I hope someone can relate?!
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lynne82155 niamh_04
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Sorry your feeling so bad.
You have to get yourself back to the doctors and consider seeing a psychiatrist and have therapy.
Anxiety thrives on fear and you are letting it win.
It is very scary but if you want to get control of your life you must get help and you must try to help yourself
Stay Strong
niamh_04 lynne82155
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lynne82155 niamh_04
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Stay strong
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Do you live with a roommate or with your parents?
niamh_04 Guest
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Is it the same for you?
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Being alone sucks. I live with a roommate and he's a good buddy, but whenever he isn't home, I often get scared that i'm going to collapse and no one can help. Helplessness is a huge problem.
are you the same?
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I do not take anxiety medication.
you?