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Hi, I'm new to this forum so I'm sorry that this is all going to come off as a bit of a complain, thank you for reading and I would be grateful for any advice you may have.
I was diagnosed with post viral fatigue this year following a bad virus. Before that I was pretty healthy, I walked to work everyday and was at the gym a few times a week. Now, although I have recovered a lot from when it first hit, I still struggle day to day. Something as small as walking up the stairs knocks me ill, and a few hours out can leave me aching for days. Even cooking a meal isn't usually an option.
I'm getting frustrated because although I can accept that nights out and shopping centres are out of the question (I'm in my mid twenties, so what I usually did), I'm still working full time, even though this means that most of my time off is spent resting (in pain) to try and keep myself fit for work. I can't quit my job because we need the money but I'm not coping very well. My employer is usually good but because there is technically nothing wrong with me (my doctor thinks it will pass, and its not classed as a disability) they won't make any allowances or accomadations, which means that its not unusual for me to work very late nights or six days a week. My performance is suffering and I worry about dismissal. I want to work part time to give myself more rest (and be better at my job) but I won't be able to pay the bills, and my family don't think this is an option for us.
I've tried going back to the doctors but although she has run blood tests etc, I kind of get the feeling that she doesn't see why I'm bothering her, as she just tells me that recovery can take several months, and its not quite been six.
It just leaves me frustrated because I feel so guilty about being ill. Although they tell me to rest and recover, it seems to be as long as I can manage pretty much as I did before. I know I put too much pressure on myself, but I feel as though I'm doing something wrong by needing help now, even though I've worked my whole life.
Does anyone else feel this way?
Thank you. Best wishes to everyone.
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