Feeling Alone.
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Hello Ladies,
This is my first time posting, after reading some of your posts I finally feel like I might fit in somewhere after months of holding in a roller coaster of emotions.
I am 39, 40 in april, and sincle last summer I have been noticing strange symptoms that would come and go, I was admitted to hospital last July as I went to AnE with tingling in my hands and leg cramps, turned out i had very low calcuim levels, which was sorted, but the whole hospital stay I found very traumatic, I can't tell you how many times they brought up cancer and other illnesses while they were investigating why I would have such low calcuim levels, I brought up whether it might be that I am in Peri - menopause, but that was shrugged off due to my age, to be honest the whole ordeal has really stuck with me.
After the hospital stay I was also diagnosed with low iron which has been an on going issue on and off for years as my periods are so heavy.
I was then checked again in October by an endocrine consultant, everything was ok (except iron), I brought up Peri- menopause again as I had been suffering with other symptoms, my periods although regular have shortened in length but have become very heavy for the first 2 days/painful and my mum hit peri around my age also, but he said the blood test they did was fine and shut me down, and said possible long covid. I was due to be seen again in January, which has been postponed due to covid.
Well since last year I have been whats felt like a never ending rollercoaster đĻ , I have never suffered with anxiety before and now I am frightened to be alone, I seem to focus on health, petrified I am dying of some terminal illness but too scared to do anything about it, I have symptoms that bounce from one to another to name a few.. racing heart wakes me up in the middle of the night, backache that comes and goes, joint pain sometimes stiffness in the morning, odd pains here and there, muscle twitches, heartbeat feels it skips every now and then, low mood, irritability, anger and inability to tolerate what I would normally, vivid dreams, tension in my neck and shoulders, clenching my jaw and more recently hot red hands, sunburn feeling in places and burning tongue .. I cannot believe how much I have changed in a year đĻ
I have had a lot of stress, I am a mum to three, two of my children have additional needs, asd, adhd, spd, and my youngest (5 year old) also has type 1 diabetes, she was diagnosed at 2 and I also care for my mum who is pretty much housebound.
I feel so alone, everyone around me thinks I am becoming a hypercondriac đĻ and not understanding.
Thank you if you got this far, I am sorry for the long post, I just really needed to open up to others that might understand.
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toria_07298 SamanthaJane81
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god bless you, you can message me if you need to chat x
SamanthaJane81 toria_07298
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@toria_07298
Thank you so much, I really appreciate it x
cat38281 SamanthaJane81
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hi dear,
I posted this some time back; perhaps you may find parts of it helpful:
https://patient.info/forums/discuss/thoughts-on-what-we-re-going-through-and-how-we-can-try-to-avoid-exacerbating-them-749174
you are not alone! hang in there and feel free to message me any time you need a shoulder â¤ī¸
SamanthaJane81 cat38281
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@cat38281 Thank you so much đ I will have a read now, I really appreciate your kind reply x
hopeforever SamanthaJane81
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Samantha welcome to peri menopause. Need not worry you are dying, you just entered the twilight zone called menopause. I am 3 and a half yrs in and it does get slightly better with time. Don't worry we are here for you. Much love
edith99275 hopeforever
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hi, hun
please describe all your symptoms I been going through menopause since 2016. my symptoms are really out wrack I need help please tell me something.
SamanthaJane81 hopeforever
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@hopeforever Thank you so much for your reply, I really appreciate your kind words â¤ī¸ Lots of love x
hopeforever edith99275
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Hello Edith. Sorry to hear you have been suffering. When i entered peri menopause had no clue i was in menopause because i entered it at 42 and never been taught that there was 3 stages of it, peri menopause, menopause then post menopause. I started off having internal shakes that scared the living daylights out of me, then came panic attacks and anxiety, nausea, feeling off balance, joint pain, headaches, vision, light and sound sensitivity, buzzing in my ears, crying a lot, back pain upper and lower, rib pain, feeling of my throat closing. I almost died chocking on food, bloat and stomach problems, weight gain which i got lipo, texture in my hair changed, sinus problem, insomnia, vivid dream, feeling of falling over, social anxiety, feeling scared to go out by myself, fear of driving and being in elevators, face feeling numb, lost all confidence, memory loss, stiff shoulder and etc etc etc. My life became a living hell overnight. With no answers in sight. I made so many trips to the ER that Drs new my name. And still they looked at me as if i was crazy. I then decided to one day take things into my own hands and thankfully found this forum, which has been my greatest support system. I found a place where other woman were experiencing the same symptoms like me. I found a new home and i discovered that i wasn't alone on this crazy roller coaster ride. Now 3 yrs in soon to be 4 i have come to accept the fact that i am in menopause and that drastic life changes had to be made. My eating habits had to change and i had to eliminate all bad stress. I had to invest in Vitamins , only grass fed meats and eating plenty vegetables. Yes i do still struggle but thank God it is not as bad. I feel that i came a long way in 4 yrs and pray each yr gets better than the one before. I hope this helps. if you do need to talk feel free to message me. God bless and hugs to you.
hopeforever SamanthaJane81
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Wishing you all the best Samantha. Feel free to message me anytime you need to talk or are feeling like your symptoms are beyond your control.