Feeling Broken ....
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Am awaiting my results for HPV 2 but am pretty sure they will be positive. Have been an emotional mess all week and just cannot stop crying, the itching is driving me mad, my 5 course day of tabs finish tomorrow and dont seem to have made any difference. I feel angry, ashamed and that life is just going to crap from hereon in. would love to hear others experiences as I dont know anyone else in the same situation ...
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amanda60475 Abbeycat
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I got diagnosed with HSV2 a few days ago. Waiting for my results was awful. I was in alot of pain, super anxious/stressed, I didnt eat for a week or sleep more than a few hours. I barely got out of bed or talked to anyone. I still live and rely on my parents financially so telling them was anything but easy (especially since they did not even know I was sexually active). I did so much research and realized how misinformed I was and how I was someone who believed the stigma. This is nothing more than an incurable skin disease. Many people (and doctors) with HSV or HPV dont think of it as more than a skin condition. Yes, it is something that happens to be contracted sexually (even with the use of condoms !!!) but that does not mean youre dirty, unhygienic, a wh*re, etc. I still dont know who I could've gotten it from which has caused even more hurt and confusion. Im waiting for my partner's results and either way I dont think the end result will be easy for either of us. Im young and ive only had few sexual partners so to think this happened to me was a total shock. Im doing much better. Im still happy and thankful this isnt something life threatening. This isnt a personality trait nor does it define who you are as a person. The stigma sucks and the sex education system is awful as well. Youre not alone either. Do research to better understand this disease and how to manage/live with it. Your life and sex life is NOT over. I wish you the best of luck ❤️
Abbeycat amanda60475
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Thank you Amanda, your words resonate completely with me and I too cant stop crying. I think it is the stigma that frightens me more than anything and the impact of explaining to any future partners. The uncertainty of how frequent this is going to reoccur and of possibly spending thd rest of my life alone is overwhelming. I hope things between you and your partner go well xx
Liz1804 Abbeycat
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Hey, im on day 10 of my first breakout. I didnt feel like the antivirals made much difference either. Ive been in the most horrific pain this whole time. I havent been tested yet as ive had a temperature so couldnt go into the surgery but i know i have it. Ive cried and cried and cried. I felt so ashamed i didnt even speak to the Doctor until the pain got unbearable because i just didnt want to know. Ive done some research, pulled myself together a bit and realised its not the end of the world. There's medication we can take, no one can tell by looking at you. Sadly, if we have it, we have it. It will take some adjusting but we'll be ok. If you want to message me on here for a chat feel free xx
Abbeycat Liz1804
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Thank you Liz, I havent had any temp or anything just the time blisters followed by the most awful itching. I bought Apple cider vinegar this afternoon and whilst it stung it has calmed the itching down. I too feel extremely ashamed and have shut myself off from everyone and just cried and cried. Had all my tests done last Thursday, nurse was fantastic but she must have thought I was a complete lunatic with all my tears. I dont need to wait for the results as it's obvious what it is. I have googled frantically all weekend and found this website which I think will be a great support. More than happy to chat and support you if I can xx
Liz1804 Abbeycat
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Ive done the same thing. The last thing my Doctor said to me on the the telephone consultation was "Stay off Google!" haha
Abbeycat Liz1804
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I know but easier said than done Liz, heres hoping for some sleep tonite! Take care x
ari22456 Abbeycat
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i was diagnosed with HSV2 yesterday and i am very depress ! i have a one year old daughter and just looking at her makes me happy but then i start thinking about the herpes again .. my first break out was VERY mild . which is the positive side about it but its just wicked how i NEVER had a std before and went straight to having herpes ? ..