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Feeling Despondent-CBT wrong for me 😖

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SLD35
SLD35

Not really looking for a solution here, but needed to get my feelings if despondency out somewhere ??

I am 35 and have been depressed and anxious on and off for over 2 decades.

I have received numerous antidepressants, anxiety management, counseling, CBT and CAT, in my quest for good mental health.

I am currently seeing a counselor who specialises in CBT and working with children who've experienced trauma and mental health. After a few sessions, we together established that CBT is not right for me right now. The homework and processes are too much work for me practically and emotionally. It is feeding into my core beliefs that I am useless and 'should've' been able to deal with this by now. Also because CBT focusses on a current problem and how to change your thinking and behaviour, and through our conversations, she has realised I need help with my childhood trauma, as it has instilled certain thought processes in me (about myself) that are currently preventing me living a healthy, happy life.

Psychodynamic therapy would be right for me.

I asked my psychiatrist about the chance of this, as ive already been on a CBT waiting list for 27 months, she said it's not possible as I'm not "far enough into the secondary care system". I.e. haven't been hospitalised, not I'll enough!

I am so hurt by this and feel even more helpless and hopeless. I am doing everything in my power to kick this illness to the kerb (if not for me, for my kids and husband), but how am I supposed to get better if I cannot deal with what happened in my childhood????

????

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  • richard89308
    richard89308 SLD35

    Posted

    If you want to talk confidentially, I could try to help you by private messaging me if you want.  But remember to delete it after we are finished discussions.
    • SLD35
      SLD35 richard89308

      Posted

      Thats really kind of you Richard, but I've no idea where to start x

    • richard89308
      richard89308 SLD35

      Posted

      you could start by talking about your trauma in childhood and if you don't want everyone to know message me privately.

    • SLD35
      SLD35 richard89308

      Posted

      Sorry, I did understand what you meant, just not sure where to start regarding the trauma. Not sure it'll take me to a healthy place either, need a therapist to guide the way, iykwim? Thank you anyway x

    • richard89308
      richard89308 SLD35

      Posted

      you have to go through the rough to get to the other side.  I am not a therapist but have a lot of experience of abuse situations so could advise you if not help a little.
  • maggs1960
    maggs1960 SLD35

    Posted

    Where are you in the UK .....i,ve just gone into physcodymanic therapy ...diagnosed bi polar disorder in 2009 .. Had a cpn for six years and was desperate for something else....worried depressive state taking over ...googled and came across Starfish a local charity ...maybe you could ring them ...and ask if there's anything in your area as it charitable and free not nhs .......

  • borderriever
    borderriever SLD35

    Posted

    Sometimes the CPN may not be the right person for you another one may be able to relate to you more fully. You should have been given coping techniques by the CPN to help you move on If you have childhood trauma that becomes a problem in its own right and that could lead to far more different types of treatment.

    We here are not generally Health Professionals and I have no knowledge of the plight you you were in as a child. Talk to your GP,CPN or other professionals regarding this.

    Good Luck

    • SLD35
      SLD35 borderriever

      Posted

      Thats just it, I'm not considered ill enough to have a CPN as I 'only' have Major Depression and Generalised Anxiety Disorder.

      My GP has done all he can with various drugs and a referral to CBT 27 months ago and a referral to the psychiatrist I now see.

      I'm stuck ??

      All I can hope is the CBT practitioner I see eventually, whenever that may be, will see I need other treatment and be able to refer me for it.

    • borderriever
      borderriever SLD35

      Posted

      hello SLD

      If you are seeing a Psychiatrist that could hold up the CPN possibly the Speialist will arrange a CPN when He feels the time is right.

      BOB

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