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Feeling Detached & Moody

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kayla1865
kayla1865

Hey everyone. I wasn't sure whether or not to post in the Anxiety Discussion or the Depression Discussion... I've been feeling anxious everyday, for a week now, badly. And I've been getting more & more depressed, everyday(I'm not saying I'm going to kill myself. I don't have the b***s). I feel like I'm barely getting through this. I can't get my mom to take me to the clinic nearby, so I can get an appointment with a therapist.

​I need to see someone, because I'm dealing with severe anxiety, Harm OCD, and who knows what else! I'm almost never calm now, and I am, it's a miracle and it doesn't last long (99% of the time). I've never been super positive. I've always been depressed, off and on, mainly because I've been bullied since I was in daycare, at 2-years old. The children would make fun of me, push me down, and call me names...

​I don't feel myself anymore. I want my old self back. I wish others around me would take me serious. I'm pretty sure the reason why is, because I'm 18-years old. No offense to those who are older, but most of  the time, they think you're perfectly fine, because you're not 20+ years older. That gets annoying. Why would I want this happening to me? If I didn't want to feel so anxious and so blue, and I could help it, I WOULD.

​I find myself crying and feeling helpless, sometimes worthless, because I can't seem to control when these horrible feelings of anxiety and depression hit me. Almost everyone expects me ot suck things up and be an adult. I want so bad, to seem like I have my stuff together. Otherwise, I'm a whiny teenager, who doesn't know "pain/suffering." I'm too young.

​I know you're not supposed to be happy, all the time, but when you have to keep hiding these things, so others will be happy, it wears you down. That's where most of my depression has come in again. I don't know how to keep hiding things and pretending I'm OK. I've never been good at hiding the fact that I'm depressed, and same goes for this anxiety. I'm not good at hiding it. It always ends up coming out. sad

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  • Guest
    Guest kayla1865

    Posted

    Until you see a therapist, post on here and people will try to help.

    It's helped me a lot

    Is this forum helping you so far?

    • Guest
      Guest kayla1865

      Posted

      I hate the detached feeling I feel like my mind will drift away
    • Guest
      Guest kayla1865

      Posted

      do u also feel numb like you can't feel or don't feel like yourself ?
    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 Guest

      Posted

      Yes.. I go from feeling like that, to starting to feel OK, then I feel like I'm going mad..
  • lynne82155
    lynne82155 kayla1865

    Posted

    Ive had depression for 16 years the anxiety only started 4 months ago

    but I can firmly say my depression was ok when the anxiety started at first but now it is affecting my mood.as Im going through a meds change etc 

    Mental illness sucks you are not alone

    stay strongbiggrin

    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 lynne82155

      Posted

      I just feel like not enough people close to me, are taking me serious. I'm stressed out about making it in life with all of this. Thank you, though. smile
    • lynne82155
      lynne82155 kayla1865

      Posted

      There is a lot of people who dont understand mental illness.

      Maybe try a support group near you xcool

  • sergio53100
    sergio53100 kayla1865

    Posted

    Keep strong please dont give up things will get better i know it feels like a nightmare and you feel like you wont never get better but you will people get better ❤
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